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"I think, therefore I am."
- Rene Descartes
My only question for Rene is, if we are because we think, do we become what we think? No. "I do, therefore I am" is the proper saying in my opinion. And I know that I didn’t do anything wrong.
Now I guess I should stop talking in riddles. Here’s what happened. On exactly April 3rd, the girl I had been dying to date asked me out. Naturally, I said yes. So we were doing well for about a week, until I left to go for a 6 day vacation. I went alone, and when I got to where I was supposed to be, I just so happened to run into someone. Someone, who would absolutely crush my heart into a million pieces in the near future. You know how there’s supposed to be one person who you’re supposed to be with forever out there? Seeing her changed that for me. I'd found someone else. If you’ve ever read Eclipse, then you might just understand how I felt. I felt like I'd imprinted. You get it? Okay then.
At this point, I was the most naive person ever, and I thought that I and my girlfriend were going to last forever. Get married, have kids, the whole deal.
So I absolutely refused to even talk to her twice. We had one conversation, and I made a point NOT to even learn her name. And I still don’t know her name. And through all my efforts, I actually managed to suppress all the feelings I had for her. When I got home, I had almost totally forgotten she had existed. But I’m getting ahead of myself. You see, I am weird. I prefer making friends who happen to be girls, which is really weird for my age group. So when I got home, I told my girlfriend everything, because I crack easily. But I didn’t tell her about the one girl whose name I didn’t even know, because like I said. I forgot she existed. But apparently, my girlfriend didn’t even like the idea of me hanging out with other girls. So, exactly one day before our one month anniversary, she dumped me.
From somewhere in the back of my mind, I remembered her.
I know it sounds like I did something wrong, but I really didn't. I loved my girlfriend. I still do. I will forever. Sometimes, I compare my self to Bella Swan. And my ex to Edward. I know it sounds messed up gender-wise, but Bella knew she couldn’t have Edward and Jacob. But she knew that she needed Edward. I just wish my ex was more understanding. But it’s too late now. Too late for a second chance. Too late for explaining. Too late for an apology for something I didn’t do. Too late for depression. Too late for the pathetic tears. Too late for anything but realizing that the only cheating that ever went on was in my head. And we are not what we thing, but what we did, we do, and what we will do to improve or overcome the past.
I did nothing wrong.
- by ericklange |
- High School Flashback
- | Submitted on 07/15/2009 |
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- Title: Nothing wrong
- Artist: ericklange
- Description: This is my pathetic attempt to prove to myself and everyone else out there that I never cheated. I know i didn't, i know im not a dirtbag, and i wish everyone else did too.
- Date: 07/15/2009
- Tags: breakup cheating depressing wrong nothing
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Comments (7 Comments)
- Chadee99 - 06/28/2012
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This isn't pathetic. I bet if your ex saw this she would understand
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- xxFallen-Miseryxx - 12/27/2009
- wow
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- Carmine the Mouse - 08/24/2009
- Wow... I feel your pain, bro... Insane fiancee did the same thing... Well, that's what I called her... after a year of dating, we were sure we were gonna get married, have kids, whatever... and then she left. Yeah... But really good story, man!
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- nefarious e - 08/01/2009
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One, your girlfriends is slightly paranoid
not to mention totally unjustified in
dumping you.
Two, wow. A guy who has read Twilight
(and I'm guessing you have by the copious
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- XxCuteDevilLivesxX - 07/19/2009
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Back to the point. She is paranoia. If she thinks talking to a girl means ur goin out with them, then you should have dumped her then and there, then she wouldn't have been such a b***h...
Also if you are younger then 15 and don't like swearing, cause I am sorry...Even though I am 13...O.e Well, you did nothing wrong it's her loss, because she dumped you! - Report As Spam
- XxCuteDevilLivesxX - 07/19/2009
- I am a girl, and what you did was not wrong. Heck my boyfriends did that, hung out with girls, I hung out with guys. They never got jealous...Until one of them asked me out...O.o Well...Anyway...
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- Dyne1986 - 07/15/2009
- Had to do two comments to say everything i wanted to say haha. To continue, Walk her by an Edward Cullen cardbord cutout and tell me that she doesn't fantasize about that thing comming to life and doing nasty things to her. Sir, what you did was not wrong and you shouldn't feel bad. Just move on from this girl becasue she is eather an idiot or she was looking for a reason to dump you.
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