Would I really do it all over?

• Artist: Faunelleneve
• Description: Hmmm....
• Date: 07/30/2009
• Tags: highschool regrets flashback

I remember the first day so clearly. I was wearing my new Guess jeans with a pink polo shirt. I had a new spiral perm. My hair was really long at that time. The style of the time was puffed up bangs....and winged out sides.... I chose to one wing it.... I remember walking into the student center talking to my friends. I was absolutely terrified at that very moment. To make matters worse I was painfully shy. I had survived junior high just to be thrown into something bigger than I could imagine. I managed to make sure I was never at any school functions. Other than the occasional Spanish Club meet. I didn't want any part of any of it. I just wanted to do my time and get the heck outta there.
Before I knew it.... It was senior year and I realized.... I had pretty much blown my highschool years. I tried to get involved in things, but it was a moot point. I skipped out of prom with my BGF and went to a movie instead. Don't get me wrong... It was a great movie, but I so regret not going...... It wasn't an easy 4 years. I got teased and picked on. Then teased some more. It's hard to be the wallflower.... I think it took more effort to not be a part of anything.... Anyway, senior night came and I just wanted that one last memory to be a great one. Had a blast, but then the regrets hit me. I had just come to the realization that I wasted the best years of my life...right? So many things I could have done different. So many parties I declined becuase I was adamant about not getting sucked into the whole highschool drama. Graduation came...and went.....
Friends moved away and lost touch. College wasn't my scene..... Nineteen years have gone by... My own 13 year old is in Junior High. Sometimes, I catch myself wondering..... What if? What if I had just let my guard down and enjoyed the last few years of being a kid..... How would my life be now? But then I think... What if I could go back..... Would things change so much that I wouldn't have my son...... So... I think even though I missed out on so much.... I made the right decisions..... Just a handful of regrets.....

Comments

[Raynai]

I like how you put doing high school all over again into perspective with what that could mean in the long term. I don't think you missed out on THAT much. I was really involved in high school, and not that it's over, the only thing that seems to matter is my transcript. I don't talk to the people I hang out with any more, or really associate with the clubs I was in. It's all just ways to pass the time and life in the moment.

[Xx-NuMbCoMplication-xX]

How old are you then?