• A Trip To Love.

    For so, so long have I wanted to be loved, Have I wanted to love him. That happened. I met this amazing guy. He was everything to me!! I honestly loved him! He gave me his everything. He poured his heart out. He said the sweetest words. Any girl was the luckiest girl to have him. But then, I would get these feelings that he would be cheating on me. Couple weeks later, I get a message from him. "Charlotte, I think its time to break up." My heart was torn. I didn't know what to do. I wasn't lifeless, But I was so emotional. We were friends -for 5 days. He found a girlfriend, the FIRST day we broke up. It was kind of strange. So, Mostly everyday his current girlfriend would message me asking if ____ talked to me. So, I said No. Because It was the truth. Well, she started complaining to him, that he was "supposingly" cheating, With me. Through all the women in the world, It had to be ME. I was surely pissed when I found out. As any girl should/would do, I talked to her. She told me, that ____ Would flirt and message her, everytime I was gone. She called me names, and I called her names. I didn't think it was fair, that she would actually flirt back, Knowing he had a girlfriend. but anyway, He didn't want to be my friend anymore. So, I just left it like that. We hadn't talked since.

    Then I met someone esle. He was smaller than I was. But he could love like a man. -Hahah- He was very immature, although he can be romantic. He didn't always say sweet things, But when he did, it was beautiful. I loved him too. But then I blew it, Because I broke up with him. He kept running away from everything, Which always made me madly insane. But, then we went back out. I didn't have the same feelings for him. It started growing back again, But it was not fully. So, I took a tarot reading on him. Basically it said that he convinced himself that he loved me. So I was so,so confused. I wondered if he did really love me, or what it just lust. I wasn't capable of holding it in. So I told him. He didn't say anything. But the next day, he broke up with me. Emotional rollercoaster it was.

    But now its a new year. Time for a change. And I met this amazing,amazing guy. Rai. After all he has been through, After all I have been through. I found Rai. Oh, He is amazing. I finally found what love is. He makes me feel loved. I am hoping I make him feel loved. He said he loved me the first time we saw eachother. It made me feel beautiful. Like a new Charlotte. Though I know that nothing changed about me. everyday, pieces of my heart would slowly come back together. It feels like apart of me, belongs to him. I always wanted/wished for a love like his. God has given me another chance. To express me feelings. To make this love just perfect. And, thats what I will do everyday, Spend the time with him.