• the thoughts in my head as type this are scarey i can feel my sanity slip as if there's a black hole pulling it out in my head . What is real and whats not ? I can feel my life force going as the darkness is slipping in . Im as cold on the end side as winter storm. I wish i would have died on those pills. I feel as if im losing every thing . My life , everything . im a slave to meds. that clam to help but are doing worst harm to me . Why won't these thoughts stop!!!!!!!!!!! Make them stop , the only time they stop is when im a sleep even then they snake in to my dreams . If only i would have died , if only it could stop. If only