• Every Thursday morning
    Tired as I was of my life
    All I wanted was to sit and read
    Nothing more but to live
    Without this charade

    I was a clown
    Putting on a big show
    And I walked up on stage with a grin on my face
    All while I hid my tears and frown
    Behind the veil that dried them at night
    Just to keep them full of bliss

    All I wanted was someone
    Somebody who could understand
    You stared at me with those eyes
    So heavenly, with a spark in your smile
    I wished, as I stared from afar,
    I wished for you
    Nothing more but to live
    With you
    No secrets,
    Just you and me

    Getting out of work at 10pm
    Exhausted from all the masks I had to wear
    I was angry, but yet so sad
    You could not see me
    For who I was
    But what did I expect
    If I was lost within my show

    All I wanted was to find an ending
    To this dreadful spectacle
    Living a lie was not for me
    Clearly not for you
    I wished, as I gazed up at the night sky,
    For you to follow my cues
    And take the stage with me
    In hopes that you can sweep me out
    Before I made a fool out of myself
    But you never came

    I took everything out on me
    Then slowly took it out on you
    But I was blind
    I did not see what I was doing
    I was hurting
    Me and
    You

    Living at home was like hell
    Every night I fell asleep with
    The salty water taste on my lips
    Wishing you were here with me
    To take me out of this circus
    But how
    If you were lost as well

    All I wanted was your loving
    Your hugs
    Your kisses
    Your words of comfort,
    Never did I hear you whisper them
    You only cared about yourself
    And I was busy
    Fixing others' broken hearts
    And I lost myself on the set
    Ignoring what was important...

    Me...

    Every Thursday morning I saw you in your seat
    How I wished we could have started out as friends
    Maybe then you would have understood
    I was too busy with my act
    I did not let you see my truths
    I put on a show for you
    So that maybe you would love me
    In the end

    I was deaf
    I was dense
    I was dead
    Nothing more but a freak in a parade
    Thinking that someday
    Someone would save me
    And change me

    I took everything out on me
    Then slowly took it out on you
    But I was blind
    I did not see what I was doing
    I was hurting;
    Me and
    You

    All I wanted was your loving
    Your hugs
    Your kisses
    Your words of comfort
    Your breath
    Your hand
    Your fingers' touch
    Your smell
    Your smile

    Hear me yelling
    Hear me crying
    Hear me screaming
    Please
    Please help me
    I'm alone
    Listen to me
    Some.... one
    I'm lost within my show

    (Piano solo)

    Every Thursday morning
    Tired as I was of my life
    All I wanted was to be and love
    Nothing more but to live
    With you...