• REALIZING REALITY
    By Amanda Thomas

    Memories of the past
    Like a flood in my own brain
    So hard to stand up
    So hard to breath
    Why is it so hard to think?
    Drugs don’t let you feel
    Cuts don’t help you heal
    Thoughts of the present
    Make me feel so alone
    So unheard
    Like hatred rushing in
    Why cut
    Stitches hold you together
    They don’t hold you up
    So stressed out
    All the pressure building up
    Like a voice in my head
    Telling me to sink
    Rather then swim
    It’s like the world is
    Crumbling to pieces
    Right under my skin
    It feels like I can’t take anymore
    Of the nonsense trying to break me
    All these thoughts make no sense
    A scary sight
    The reality in this world
    I try to pretend
    That the future isn’t real
    Reality hits me like a brick
    When the sand runs out
    You can’t flip the glass over and start again
    So why not live the life you have
    Rather then wasting it
    Feel the rush behind the wheel
    Find the things that get you through
    This sick and twisted game of reality
    Rather then feeling so insecure
    Find a safety in the air you breathe
    If you don’t like the reflection in the mirror
    If you don’t like who you’ve become
    Break it
    Change it
    Show who you are beneath the surface
    And find what is real