Coward

• Artist: Nemone
• Description: One of my free-verse poems, a slightly more recent one.
• Date: 05/12/2009
• Tags: rant

Why am I afraid?
I'm like a mental patient
Cutting myself with what ifs
As if to make sure that I'm alive
Cowering from human contact
Avoiding disapproval that isn't there
Knowing I'm not good enough
But not knowing why
Never trying hard enough to fail
Never trying hard enough to succeed
Wanting to be first
But feeling only worthy enough to be second
Never wanting to appear to have lost
And handing over even the smallest victory with a smile
Why am I a coward?

Comments

[Zuhukanah]

Damn I feel this way when I try to talk to the girl I like. I just don't think she likes me back, and I'm never good enough. I actually feel this way a lot... good job