• It was great for awhile
    nothing good ever lasts;
    the damage is done,
    but how does this help anyone,
    too good to fade away
    I just want to breathe,
    I hate my soul so much
    and I just can't change,
    I'm on my own in a sea of darkness,
    I can't swim so well
    and I won't drown fast,
    can't call out for help,
    They don't allow it
    - the demons in my head,
    see this girl - she's a fake,
    a phony, nothing's real
    but the melancholy,
    I can't be saved because
    I ease myself with razor blades,
    I don't know if this is
    revenge or some last cry;
    I'm not a writer
    or artist of any kind;
    I tell how it is '
    No once upon a time,
    I'm masked by children and
    death is on my mind,
    God help me for I have sinned,
    A wolf can't blow this down,
    a knight can't break it in,
    I sealed it shut so not
    a creak of sun or sound can be fed-
    just distant distortion
    of a world unseized.