• i want to grasp that moment
    - when you fell backwards into my arms and didn't move,
    eyes closed with foreign relaxation and trust
    in my fingers running through your hair, loving how your
    shoulders.face.smile relaxed when i, drawing circles
    on your skin brought goosebumps to delicate arms.---
    when you trusted me not to make a mess
    - of soft laughter rippling through our bodies,
    voices captivated with secrets of desire, and knowing it was wrong
    for you, but oh.so.right for me when our lips parted
    and met, lingering with uncertainty and breath, bated..and again,
    bodies intertwined...---
    and i did anyway, rebelling against instinct
    --when our locked fingers pressed to your heart
    revealed that beat of lustnotlove ---
    and hold it forever.