When I

• Artist: Aya-Whitewater
• Description: at the time i wrote this i was reading skip beat. a manga i fell in love with and im still reading it. i wrote this as a reflection of one of the chapeters in the book. it made my teacher cry.
• Date: 03/16/2010
• Tags: love sorrow forgivness

When i Cry
you cannot hear me
you turn your back
and walk away

When i try
to grab your hand
you only push me away

When i do well
in school like you want me to
you say "good job"
and walk away

When im at school
im pushed around
i hear stories about you
from the older women

When i walk past
they wisper about you
they also wisper
about me
the say "that poor child,
she needs a better mom"

When i hear them
i hold my head high
i do not care
their words mean nothing
i only care about you

When i come in
the door closes behind
i run to see you
but you dont see me

When i walk away
i dont say
"i hate you"
or wonder if you love me
i dont because i love you

when i go home with a bad grade
i cry
you dont confert me
insted you punish me

when i go to the river bed
only there do i cry harder
i only want you to love me

when im there
a boy come
he tells me not to cry
but wish on a stone he gave me

when i have the stone
i dont cry
i smile and move on

when i go to the river
the boy is no longer there
im sad
but i know hes stll here
in my stone

when i think of him
my mothres crulty fades
and im left with only me

when i was 8
i cried for my moms love
tried to have her love me
and i stuck up for her

when i am 18
i hold my stone
wondering why i tried so hard
wondering why my childhood was terrible

when i hold the stone
i wish to seee that boy again
i wish to find and to gain
a feeling i had long lost