• I wonder if this rain will stop.
    But if it stops I know my emotions will rush back to me.
    Oddly the rain holds back my tears.

    It’s been like this for 3 months
    Raining in a constant flow.
    There are no breaks in the falling sheets.

    Its rhythm is soothing.
    Normally it would lull me to sleep but my brain is preoccupied.
    So it just helps me think.

    The pattern beats out like drum.
    It keeps my train of thoughts going.
    I never veer of the path.

    I haven’t gone outside in weeks.
    My friends still flit about enjoying life.
    But I have no interest in breaking my solitude.

    Sometimes I wonder what you are doing.
    Or what is occupying your mind.
    I wonder if any thoughts of me ever enter your head.

    At that I shake my head.
    I know the answer.
    Of course not.

    We haven’t talked in weeks.
    No communication what so ever.
    Just silence between us.

    Absolutely nothing.
    And I wonder what is filling your thoughts/mind.
    I know your not like me.

    You’re still living life.
    You’re still a bright presence in the world.
    And I know you’re not looking for me

    But I would be lying if I said I didn’t want to see you.
    Yes I admit it.
    It is you I have been thinking about for these long rainy months.

    It seems you leaving me brought them here.
    I still remember that day.
    The day you left and rain came to take your place.

    Then like my sadness it steadily grew.
    Breaking away layer after layer of my defenses.
    Leaving me with nothing.

    Didn’t you know I loved you?
    Didn’t you know I truly cared?
    Didn’t you know it would hurt me to say good-bye?

    But somehow you remain oblivious.
    Caught up in a world of friends and lies.
    Twisting deeper and deeper into your soul.

    Those friends who disagreed with you about me.
    You never listened to them before.
    But something changed.

    Why did you listen?
    Why now?
    Why not before?

    You are a mystery.
    And I don’t have the puzzle pieces to figure you out.
    And this is what is keeping me here.

    Locked in my house,
    All alone,
    By myself, without you.

    Staring at the rain,
    Knowing someday
    Someday it will leave me too

    Just like you.