• Here
    I am, somewhere
    Unrecognizable, I cannot quite see
    Who I am,

    But it’s over,
    My world closes and opens, I
    Feel my lids glide across
    The cool surface of my eyes like skates

    My skin is ice, you cannot
    Touch, I am frozen
    From the inside out, my heart went first.
    Maybe the brain?

    The harsh drum
    Sounding from my own chest,
    A contradiction
    Lies within, even

    In this supposedly sacred life,
    Where they whisper “potential”
    And I can’t stand
    To disappoint

    The ones who stand besides me.
    Holding my crippled hand, shriveled and black
    I am not what they think.
    I am something else entirely,

    I am sinking
    Below myself, below
    A world, so blue, to which
    I never belonged.

    My memories and feelings
    Scab over, peel off
    This skin, and I will not
    Remember, I am so thankful.

    Now, trapped in the oven, hot
    And molten
    I am melting into myself, I huddle
    Under this heavy blanket that covers me,

    Surrounds me
    I have been waiting for this.
    Cracking and deconstructing, for conformations
    Of what I have known all along.