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so I talked to my boyfriend and I feel much better. we talked about many different religions and what they have and I'd like any info you guys could give my on them since my mom isn't being supportive. but I'd like to still worship the Christain God and still have the bible. but I don't want it to be as strict as Catholicism.
or maybe I should just follow my own beliefs?

very good point

indeed...my mom was raised as a lutheran but she switched to catholic...but yet she's not letting my even try to switch to something new!

it feels really strange not having a religion >.< sort of a mix of happiness, confusion, sadness and...just sorta feel like I'm doing something wrong confused which I know I'm not...it's just...idk >.<;;

I believe that your mother shouldn't keep you tied down to her religion. My mother was forced to be a Catholic as well until she was eighteen. She'd been attending a different church for years, and was finally able to become a full time member. I guess that God doesn't punish you for not having a religion. I mean, if you feel like the one you are in isn't right, it's not your fault, is it? So, your freedom of choice lets you decide what you want to believe and how you would like to go about it. Your parents can't keep a leash on you your whole life, thank goodness.

I would have to say say a christian but get out of catholicism 3nodding

I myself actually have struggled with finding my own religion about a month ago, so I know a little bit of what you're going through right now.

I would say that you should just follow what you believe to be right. I don't go to any church myself, but that's because of a fear that developed after being brainwashed for 15 years while I belonged to a cult (not a satanic one, though).

So just do what you think you should do. Don't let anyone else decide for you what to believe, because then you'll doubt your beliefs.

all you really can do is follow your own beliefs. it's good that youre thinking for yourself. you cant suddenly decide what you're going to believe... either you believe it or you dont. it's not a choice. its a deep seated feeling that you have from deep within you. it's sad, but common that your mother isnt supportive, but you are an individual and religious belief is a highly personal thing, and you shouldnt believe in something just because someone else said so. you need to question things for yourself, and I think it's wonderful that this seems to be what you're doing. I know a bit about a bunch of different religions, and I dont believe any one of them literally. but the more research you do on different religions you not only see the differences between them, but also the similarities, and I think it's the similarities that people should focus on. take what is useful, and disgard the rest.

LOL what phynx said is funny. and hella is right about the commonality of gathering. i'm born, raised a catholic...until my freshman year of catholic highschool. old enough to raise questions, unanswered of course. but now that i'm older, i have my own following of various religious sentiments. i believe IN A GOD, but i also branch off to other religions. maybe i'm agnostic? my bf is aetheist (not a pagan as my father accuses, not that paganism is bad) and he thinks i'm ff his beliefs. my parents are supremely unsupportive, like yours. a few years ago i had a horrible bout w/ them coz i didn't want to go to church. i've had it, i couldnt' take it. i explained to them my beliefs, which is extremely unchristian for them. to me, church is a family tradition ( i now go w/ them when we can) therefore i force myself. but as long as you worship respectfully and whole heartedly your own way, your god will find you deserving. i'd rather be who i am in my beliefs than be an avid praiser one day a week then cross myself before shooting someone, wearing a cross while raping a person, crying out his name while scamming someone, etc., i punctuated to my parents. my mom agreed ( dad was still vehement) but she still pushes me to the bandwagon coz ' i need to ff something in my life for guidance and help me from temptations and s-*t holes. but if you believe your belief truly makes you honorable and helps you find yourself then go for it. modern times affords it and you. no matter what the argument is, religion is as vital to society as gov't is. hey, i'm not religious, but even i understand that. caly is right, some need to be told whats and waht nots. churches is often a stable environment, a constant many people need in their weekly basis. to escape, to medidate...but the unspoken truth is- a place to gather w/ others in common. we're humans. we need that constant stability of normalcy. even if it's fake, sometimes =P. so, you're not the only one finding a religion. nowadays, it's ok to not be so keen in a single one. honestly, even if you don't have a distinguished or labeled religion, as long as you're an honorable citizen, you can't go wrong.