Ive posted about my friend before. Some know 'Bob.' Others know 'Jadi-chan.' And probably a few others this time Ill call her Jade. But weve been having issues for a while and I finaly told her I couldnt be her friend any more.
If you know the story, then you can probably skip the next few para's. Ill put an * when Im done.
Jade has been doing really stupid things lately, and she was my 'bff' for over 5 years and weve known each other for 6. We know more about each other then ourselfs. We couldnt live two days without each other.
Well, just recently, Jade started doing stupid stuff just because she "Wanted to." According to her. I know it was just major players in her life making her want to. She was doing things like cutting [she got over that], she told me she once took prescription drugs that wernt hers, she was acting like a ninja slut ninja [I hate calling her that.], and a whole bunch more. She even wrote a suiy [suicide] note about 3 months ago.
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Just last Friday after school, I gave her a five page note basicly saying that either she stops this stuff, or Im not going to be her friend any more. I told her that a lot of other people want to tell her this [which they do] but are too scared of what it might do to her.
Now she's saying that she never wanted to be my friend, that I was a horrible person, and a whole bunch more about me that I can't stand. The day after I gave her the note, she sent me a pm asking if that was what I really wanted and I said 'yes'.
But the truth is, I want to stay her friend. I don't want to be against her. The best way to get her back to the real, safe, true her; is to break who she is now. But it's killing me because she acts like we never knew who eachother were, and she's taking away friends from me, and I can't tell any one I've ever known how I feel. I even wrote a poem for her, though no one knows it's for her. It's killing me to be strangers to each other, I don't want it to be like this, but I don't want to deal with her *stuff* any more either.
Like it says in my signature. I feel totally guilty and I want to stay friends, but I dont because I dont want to hold the weight of the world on my shoulders.
Should I try to make it up, later or now, or not at all, or ever???
If you know the story, then you can probably skip the next few para's. Ill put an * when Im done.
Jade has been doing really stupid things lately, and she was my 'bff' for over 5 years and weve known each other for 6. We know more about each other then ourselfs. We couldnt live two days without each other.
Well, just recently, Jade started doing stupid stuff just because she "Wanted to." According to her. I know it was just major players in her life making her want to. She was doing things like cutting [she got over that], she told me she once took prescription drugs that wernt hers, she was acting like a ninja slut ninja [I hate calling her that.], and a whole bunch more. She even wrote a suiy [suicide] note about 3 months ago.
**
Just last Friday after school, I gave her a five page note basicly saying that either she stops this stuff, or Im not going to be her friend any more. I told her that a lot of other people want to tell her this [which they do] but are too scared of what it might do to her.
Now she's saying that she never wanted to be my friend, that I was a horrible person, and a whole bunch more about me that I can't stand. The day after I gave her the note, she sent me a pm asking if that was what I really wanted and I said 'yes'.
But the truth is, I want to stay her friend. I don't want to be against her. The best way to get her back to the real, safe, true her; is to break who she is now. But it's killing me because she acts like we never knew who eachother were, and she's taking away friends from me, and I can't tell any one I've ever known how I feel. I even wrote a poem for her, though no one knows it's for her. It's killing me to be strangers to each other, I don't want it to be like this, but I don't want to deal with her *stuff* any more either.
Like it says in my signature. I feel totally guilty and I want to stay friends, but I dont because I dont want to hold the weight of the world on my shoulders.
Should I try to make it up, later or now, or not at all, or ever???
