So, for the past 5 years (im 15 now) I've been ... the person whose introverted. for the first 3 years of those 5, i was dark, thought about suicide, would never talk to strangers and only to friends i knew for a long time. After those years i thought as my friends moved away. I'm gonna end up with nothing. Fine. I'll change, but how? For two years I sort of analyzed the friends I still had, maybe making 1 or 2 more in the lapse of two years (LAME i know).
So now im 15, this summer I've been thinking of using all those suggestions and small analyzations of those who are social. Be more extroverted is the key to this particular gate, but I just can't find myself, if its the guts, or the will to walk up to some slight stranger and start a conversation.
There is one problem that pulls this entire attempt of being social down a couple of notches. Where i live the town is TINY, and I had already attended during my 5 years of social retardness in the presence of almost everyone (yes, EVERYONE, no exageration here) and left a HORRIBLE impression of the dark strange child who sits in a corner and plays mute. I've heard it thorugh my friends, who get along with them and refuse to care about my reputation to fix it (closest things to friends anyways). (and trust me, they won't introduce me to anyone, cause they tried that 2 years ago and that's why i meant "everyone".)
What to do? I am moving away, but not for a couple of years, i know im staying at least one more. Last year was a failure. I don't know how to keep up a conversation with a stranger without getting nervous, stuttering or blanking out with what they're saying. I was even given anti anxiety pills by my doctor. And i know acting like the previous makes other people nervous as well.
I warned you it was long, maybe a bunch of pointless unecesarry stuff in there, but... PLEASE any advice would be great, how to approach, how to approach people who think you're demented, how to keep up a conversation, how to stop being so nervous. I don't even care about getting guys anymore since this issue is so priority right now. So.. hit me. :S
So now im 15, this summer I've been thinking of using all those suggestions and small analyzations of those who are social. Be more extroverted is the key to this particular gate, but I just can't find myself, if its the guts, or the will to walk up to some slight stranger and start a conversation.
There is one problem that pulls this entire attempt of being social down a couple of notches. Where i live the town is TINY, and I had already attended during my 5 years of social retardness in the presence of almost everyone (yes, EVERYONE, no exageration here) and left a HORRIBLE impression of the dark strange child who sits in a corner and plays mute. I've heard it thorugh my friends, who get along with them and refuse to care about my reputation to fix it (closest things to friends anyways). (and trust me, they won't introduce me to anyone, cause they tried that 2 years ago and that's why i meant "everyone".)
What to do? I am moving away, but not for a couple of years, i know im staying at least one more. Last year was a failure. I don't know how to keep up a conversation with a stranger without getting nervous, stuttering or blanking out with what they're saying. I was even given anti anxiety pills by my doctor. And i know acting like the previous makes other people nervous as well.
I warned you it was long, maybe a bunch of pointless unecesarry stuff in there, but... PLEASE any advice would be great, how to approach, how to approach people who think you're demented, how to keep up a conversation, how to stop being so nervous. I don't even care about getting guys anymore since this issue is so priority right now. So.. hit me. :S
