An unhealthy obsession which led me to something terrible

[f ii o r e ll a]

I'm not sure if there is another topic like this but here's my story:
It all started at the beginning of last year when I had a crush on this guy at school (who is in alot of my classes) and added him on bebo. I thought by adding him it would let him know that I liked him (I should've commented on his page even though it is too late now). I'm not sure if he did know I liked him but after I added him I kept thinking he'd been showing me signs. I became so obsessed with him that I'd probably told almost the whole world that I liked (which was a stupid thing to do) - even the populars, who seemed nice when they asked who my crush was. When I told all these people I didn't take into consideration that if he didn't like me or if he got a girlfriend I would be a fool in front of all the people I told I liked him.
Well, throughout the whole of last year I was still so obsessed with him but I was way too shy to tell him how I felt and this had went on until the start of this week. I did the stupid thing of waiting until he would ask me out, which he never. Because of my obsession, I was constantly checking his relationship status on bebo to see if he was still single (I know, I sound like a stalker). sweatdrop
So I'll just get to the point. When we all finally got back to school (this year) from the long Christmas holidays, a couple of weeks went by then something horrible happened. In Maths, I saw he was talking and laughing with this other girl in our class. I kind of let that one go even though that moment was always on my mind. When class finished I was walking pass someone and caught part of their conversation: something something "...is going out with (the guy's name goes here)". After I felt a bit paranoid but I told myself that I must have been mishearing it.
Next Maths lesson, the guy was at it again with that other girl. Now I was sure he liked her. I felt horribly sick, dizzy, and found it hard to breathe - the hot weather did not make things any better. Surprisingly I was strong enough to not cry and I also focused on my work and my survival without letting anyone see I was suffering.

So now, I really need help on how to deal with this sadness which I don't think I can hide anymore if they keep this up everytime I have subjects with both of them. I just can't avoid them and I don't want to try to break them up because they are well-suited for one another, they share the same interests.
And something else too - because this incident happened on the week before Valentine's Day, how will I be able to cope on that day? I've never seen them kiss each other but they will no doubt be doing that on the day. I guess I have to fly solo yet again and now my life just seems boring and empty without the thoughts of him being with me.  

[minus infinity]

You and I are both in the same situation.

Its best to move on, in general. But if you ever actually talked to one another in a friendly manner, its good to keep talking - and maybe even remain friends(?).
As to let off steam, write in a journal, talk, sing, or anything that makes you happy. It might take a while for you to find someone else (and I know it has for me), but maybe you'll find yourself someone thats even better, and maybe who even likes you back.
If you ever need to talk, theres a ton of people in this forum (including myself) who are willing to listen. Good luck! [:

 

[f ii o r e ll a]

No, I've never talked to him once, he is sort of a part of the populars even though he seems like a nice guy compared to all his other friends but yeah, I have never talked to him. I'm a shy person, and a bit dorky so that's why.
But thank you, I've been listening to cheerful music now that makes me happy. Hopefully I do find someone, even though I'm a bit picky with guys and their nationality. sweatdrop I think it's really my pickiness that I've never had a boyfriend before.  

[minus infinity]

You're very welcome. [:

I think pickiness is kind of good, actually - taking it slow is a good idea. (in my opinion, at least. no rushing into relationships / love, yayyy. Ever heard someone say "You don't find love, love finds you?") :9

 

[Lavender-the-9-tailed-fox]

What I suggest is give up. What I mean by that, is not care so much if you have a boyfriend. Let love come to you, but let yourself become independent. I've been independent for a long time now, and I am seriously happy. I still get crushes but I never dwell on them and I just keep moving forward so the pain of finding out my crush has a gf doesn't bother me at all anymore. Just say 'Love isn't important. If I get it, I get it.' XD
Hope that helps at all. I have bf now, but even if he broke up with me right now I would just smile and just stay friends with him. XD
Actually, I find myself kind of drifting away from love totally, but I'm sure that won't happen to you. I am not sane in the head, so yeah. (it's been proven. Trust me.)  

[le_pwner]

if he didn't notice you then he must be a loser. leave the beautiful women to men with no imagination and wait for the right guy.  

[ChaoticCatDemon]

I know this is a bit late, but I agree with everyone here. Move on. You'll find that someone. Sometimes, that special someone will be right under your nose the entire time.

And I agree with le_pwner. If the dude didn't notice you, then screw him. He's a loser who probably went after the other girl for some shallow reasons.