This morning I received an E-mail from Jay my mom's boyfriend. He told me he was absolutely angry with my mom for complaining about her bad life. I get tired of her too but I keep it up b/c I love her. I see his true stripes..... He said it was all over and he could "never go back". He said he didn't love my mom anymore. He said I could come to Germany still but mom couldn't. I would have to stay with mom. I was crying and still am.... They made each other so happy. Seeing my mom laugh and smile so much made me happy too! Now I am so sad I can't even tell you. I can't stop crying and wanting to see my mother to make sure she is ok. I hope she doesn't do anything stupid. My brother is being a complete jackass. "He's a baby and mom's an a**." My sister just dismissed it like it was nothing. They don't care!!! Not at all... I lost my apetite but I am eating my eggs anyways. I don't want an empty stomach and a full head. No one seems to understand what's going on. Lydia is begging for food like a dog and everyone else is going on with daily things. This makes me so mad.....I didn't think I could be this sad again. I promised myself not to get this upset. I need cheering up in the worst way. I can't go over to Jackie's a bawling mess. That wouldn't be right. Good bye. . .
Zabethlyburn · Sun Jun 24, 2007 @ 02:09pm · 3 Comments |