Last night not only did I cry myself to sleep but I took down everything that was hanging on my walls. I'll probably end up putting them all back on but last night I felt like I needed to express my greif somehow...and that was it. My wall was basically full of things that I liked and cared about. Everything from my snowball stuff to all the cards I've gotten since 8th grade. It all came down. I'm putting them somewhere safe where I can't see them. When I'm in a better mood and can stand looking at it I'll put it back up, but for now it needs to be down. I will be doing the same type of thing on gaia by taking all my items and friends out of my house. If you don't know me in real life this may not seem like such a big deal, but to me it actually is. To further explain how I feel last night I wrote a note to myself and it talked about how I wished I had the heart to kill myself. Don't worry about me commiting suicide though I truly don't have the heart. Not since Peter jumped of a 6 story building last year. Sure he was lucky enough to make it out alive but that doesn't mean I will.
 Serene Lullaby · Mon Apr 25, 2005 @ 12:36pm · 1 Comments |
