In real life. Today is the day me and Savvi got into a fight. Well actually it started last night on the phone. Iwas really upset last night and I couldn't get to sleep cause evertime I lied down I couldn't breath. I have this huge headache and maybe I snaped at her, I don't even remember. I didn't get to sleep till around 3:15am I know cause I heard my mom get up. Ironically I dreampt about finally getting Savvi's b-day present to her. Maybe it's because I regret not getting the info I needed form her to make her present before we got into the huge fight. Anyway, I didn't even hear my alarm go off, if it did. I woke up to a phone call. It was my cousin who I pick up at 10 til 7:00 every morning and take to school. It was 7:10 and she was wondering where I was. I was so late, I didn't know what to do. Her little sister my cousin Emily had to be at school in time because she has a feild trip today. I could have been there within 10 minute at the most but I also had to get my two little brothers up and dressed and ready to go. So I told her it could take like 30 minutes, so she called her mom who had to come in from work and pick them up. I got ready and got the boys up and ready in 5 minutes time. I have no idea what I dressed them in. I hope it was something sincable. I called Jen back and told her I was ready and thought I could make it. So she called her mom back to tell her but she had already left, I hope Emily makes it to her feild trip. I had to take the boys directly to school and didn't get a chance to call their babysitter and tell her that we wouldn't be coming, I hope she's not worried. Today was suppost to be a good day! Today was a day I was looking forward to, but I screwed it all up and I've let just about everyone I care about down and the day has just started. I'm a failure, and I don't think I'll be on the internet much today. I think I'm gonna find a nice story to read and absorb myself into it until I forget about the real world and all my troubles and the troubles of the others that I've caused. Maybe I'll go update my site. Anything to keep me busy so I can stop this constant brooding.
heart Nevermind everything will be ok I have hope and I am forgiven heart
 HanaJaganshi · Wed Oct 20, 2004 @ 02:43pm · 0 Comments |
