BAAAAH!!! Jilliums Avi is so cutesie o_o. . .I WANT IT. . .so ANYHOO. I moved back to my daddy's house biggrin which isn't all that great. although I live down the road from Jess-jess again, billy's never home and brennen finally moved out. Sad to say, I miss being picked on. . .it was entertaining. now I know how it feels for Jess. a dad a mom and no siblings o-o. . .well. . .I HAVE siblings. . .but. . .I never see them. and I REALLY miss messa. I'm gonna go to visit her this weekend. ANYHOO! I had a weird dream last night. . .and after I boughted my kitty ears I fell asleep on the couch while doing my homework and ended up having another weird dream.
Last nights dream was even weirder though.
Fluffy and I were sitting across from eachother in his dressing room before a concert. and then he stood up to leave, and he looked all frustrated like he had to tell me somethin' so he's standing back facing me, in the door frame to the dressing room. and the last thing he says before he leaves is.
"Never forget. . .How I'll always feel. . .and what I'll always think. . .of you. . ." and then he walked out and closed the door behind him carefully.
Then I ran after him and opened the door yelled wait but. . .fell. . .off the stage. . .somehow o-o.
Nick grabbed my hand before I could really fall of course but yeah.
so nick pulls me back on stage and I look from him to Kevin. and then look at Joe. . .who. . .winks at me o-o -shakes head- anyway, the dood winks at me and next thing I know I'm at school standing with Jessy and. . .Nick. . .it was crazy weird I asked nick "Why are you here?" and he just smiled and said "so you don't do something stupid and get yourself hurt of course." and then I looked shocked and said "but what if somebody!--" and turned around to look for people behind me. . .but no one was there.
then I turned back and I was in this hallway. . .walking down it and it's like. . .white. . .and endless. . .so I'm looking at these pictures and I can feel myself smiling. me and Jess. me and Hannah. me hannah and Jess. me and billy. stuff like that. and then I look at this picture of me and Joe. . .but someone is torn out of it. . .leaving only an arm. and then suddenly that peice of the picture comes back and it's Nick and Joe on either side of me. and then I turn around to see Joe standing silently behind me. and the last words that flicker in my head are
"Never forget. . .How I'll always feel. . .and what I'll always think. . .of you. . ."
and then I get a little flash back of the exact scene in the beginning of my dream but what happened before-hand Joe says "I know if we were together I'd just end up hurting you. . .because of the distance. . .and I'd only be around once in a while."
I smiled at him "But. . .what if I don't care about the distance. what if I'm just happy to see you when you come around?"
he laughs lightly and ends up saying ". . .your cute. . .I've always liked that about you." and then he hands me a rose.
then that's when he gets that look on his face and says
"Never forget. . .How I'll always feel. . .and what I'll always think. . .of you. . ."
and leaves. then I come back from the flashback and he's gone and I'm standing in this big beautiful feild but it's night time and all the flowers are closed up and un-bloomed.
then I look down at my hand and notice I've been carrying that rose the whole time. I smile and say.
"You know what they say. If you love something let it go. . .and if it comes back it's yours. . .but what if. . .that thing never comes back?" I let go of the rose and it flies off with the wind. then the breeze suddenly changes and the rose floates back and hits me in the chest. I smile and the feild turns light and all the flowers bloom ((and it's all cheesey and blah)) and then I close my eyes and laugh. then I'm standing next to Joe again. I hug him and say "I don't care how far apart we are. I know, we're inseparable." and then I woke up. . .
and my little nap dream was similar, but with less sappy scenes. xD
 Andrezei · Wed Sep 26, 2007 @ 03:10am · 0 Comments |
