In only 6 days, Sean and I will be enjoying our one month anniversary. Yea yea, I know to some of you you're thinking "Oh wow... one month... big deal." But to me it is a big deal. And yes, this post WILL be mainly about him because, well, I don't feel like showing off my gift for him yet.
Because I never felt this way about someone who I could touch with my own two hands. It's not often that I even feel comfortable near a guy physically due to past experiences with the gender.
But everytime I was with Sean it was different; I never felt threatened or intimidated or scared around him. I normally don't go around a guy and NOT feel those three emotions; I always feel at least one even if its just once. And everything about him is just so wonderful, too.
Normally when a guy sits/stands too close to me, I tense up and scoot away in fear of why he may be close; several times Sean would stand or sit close to me and each time I would tense - but not because I was scared, but because of how he smelled everytime he was near me. It was a soft, sweet smell that really made me think of the outdoors areas where there are lots of trees. And it was even stronger when he would hug me because I was then surrounded by the scent. It was overwhelming.
And while I have seen some very beautiful eyes in my life, I never saw any as pale as his that still held color and emotion with as much softness. He has those pale grey eyes with a hint of ice blue in a slim eye shape. I've only seen one other male who had eyes just as beautiful.
Sean's energy is just outstanding as well; I rarely see or hear him act calm other than on the car ride from San Fransisco. He has the sort of energy that just draws you out and makes you want to play because if you don't he'll pick you up and make you play. And I've never met anyone so willing to give piggyback rides; he didn't decline once.
On top of all that, I feel comfortable around him because I know he's not judging me like others have in my past. He constantly boosts my confidence by telling me what it is about me he's attracted too; he offers to listen to me cry or complain and he'll give me advice; he's more than eager to meet the friends I've told him about and even more willing to try to freak them out.
I've never met anyone, male or female, who was as wonderful as Sean is and I don't think I ever could. I can't see myself holding any other emotion for Sean other than what I do now.
And while I can't say I know what the future holds, I can say that I hope he's in it for a good long while. Because I can't think of any other person (especially one who is male) who can hold such energy and morality at once without losing personality.
 Myth Tariyun · Mon Sep 05, 2005 @ 09:35am · 5 Comments |
