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The world is ******** up
Tonight was so ******** up, I can't get my head around it. How can things get so screwed up, so far ******** in the head that you can't even understand what your trying to think anymore.
Before I dive into my story, here is some history. Back in the good old days of grade 1, I had two friends, who were my best friends in the whole world: Jason and Stacey. We'd do everything together, had all our birthday's with each other, our own codes and all that childish things. We were friends all through elementry school and Half way through grade 8. Then we kind of broke off, Jason got into drugs while Stacey and I steered mroe into our studies and stuff. We tired to keep up our friendship, but the drugs Jason was on kept us apart for years.
No Stacey messeges me, saying I need to call her right away, that it was about Jason. So of course I call her right away to see what was going on. When Stacey tells you to call her house at 11pm, you know something is wrong.
So she tells me that Jason has gotten himself into some trouble, worse then usual. Jason had gotten into a huge fight with his girlfriend/wife girl and he ended up slapping her. SO she slaps him back with a restraining order and takes the kids away from him. (they have three kids by the way) Jason was force dback to his parents house to live there while he restraining order was up. A few nights later, she calls him up saying she wants him back and to come see her, thus breeching the restraining order. Now knowing what I do about his girlfriend is that she's a crazy b***h, very nasty and just a horrible person in general. In my mind, she was just setting him up to ******** him over royaly. Well, they get into another fight and she calls the cops on him, thus he gets thrown in jail for breaking the law. He spends a good few hours in jail until he was released back to his parents. However, when he got home, he downed a whole bunch of Tylenol 3's and attempts to commit suicide.
He's okay right now, got released from the hospital today and Stacey has been to see him. She didnt call me earlier becuase I had school today so I couldn't be reached. After talking with him, he tells stacey that he didn't think that we care anymore. Well this shocked stacey cause its quite different, Jason is one of our best friends. Even though we never talk, we still know we'd be there for each other.
What Stacey and I need to do now is try and straighten him out, get him off meth and all that s**t. Unfortuneatly, he is so in love with this girl he's with that he'd do anything for her. Sadly she's a cold heartless b***h who is the worst mother one could ever find. It's like th eonly reason why she had children was becuase she could.
Its so hard to have a friend break down to that, fall apart until there is nothing left.
So n ow Stacey is going to see him after school tomorrow to talk to him, then see if he wants to talk to me. We've been the most distant, him and I. I see his father on the bus all the time, which is always so awkward.
I'm the only one who hasn't really done anything or ******** up. I dont do drugs, I dont have kids or anything related to such, never drank excessively, neve rhad a dangerous relationship, never tired to kill myself (though I've thought about it a number of times), none of that s**t. Sure I'm a bit excentric and a bit off my rocker but I've lived a rather nutral life. The worst thing I've done was steal a candy bar from a corner store, but then later on I told my mom and cried about it saying I was a horrible person. My disadvantage is that, I dont know how to relate to them. I've never had life altering problems that has affected the way I've done things. I've just been ******** in the head from the start. I feel like an outcast and I'm afriend that I dont know how to help.
I'm just a useless little ******** that wants to help but is so incomputent that I can't do s**t all.
What am I going to do?
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