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Dear Mom,

I don't know what to say to make you understand. I don't know what I need to say. I know you have an illness but you don't do anything about it. No matter how many pills they give you. No matter how much help we offer you. You don't take it you don't change. And maybe this time you mean it, maybe you really do. But I can't believe that anymore. I tried to help you, you didn't want my help. Nobody is plotting against you at least not in this family. And I was talking with Aunt Lisa and she said that the only she would be mad at you is because you wouldn't let them help. You wouldn't let them be your family. This Christmas was sweetest ever because Debbie made a slideshow of Grandma and Grandpa's 50 years together. They are a great family and if you'd only accept them you'd see that.
The truth is mom I can't have you back because I know you won't change. All those medicines and you wouldn't stay on one. Wouldn't go to counseling, you wouldn't do anything. You would be a great mother if you only had your mind and if you stayed off the computer. Travis and Hunter miss you, I do too, but I don't think we can go through this again. Dad doesn't want to give you another chance and frankly I don't want to either because I know how it will end. But we do love you. Nobody wants to take us away from you but the boys seem lighter like there not worried anymore. It seems like the kinda came out of their shells. Hunter helps with the dishes now. Tabby is happy and he helps more too. Grandpa gets them to bed every night at nine to the point where they're used to it. They'll even go to bed for me. And the seem to listen better now.
I'm so sorry about all this but its true its almost like you were never here like you were a shadow causing a bunch of torment. I wish I could at least see you for Christmas because you are my mother and I do love you. No one has ever hurt us mom. Believe me when I say that. Grandpa cares for us very much he would never hurt us and neither would Dad. I would like to have you back in the house if you were made to take medicine and to see a counselor or whatever. I know you're an adult but sometimes mom you at like a child. But I don't need a child right now I need a mother. So please if you do win today then okay fine but please take the medicine or I'll find a way to live with Dad. Because I don't want to do this again. If you don't win then keep taking the medicine and doing what you're doing. When things get stable and you have a job. Divorce him if you must and try and get visitation.
But no matter happens today, tomorrow and the next know that all of us love you and just want you to be well. Its not about controlling you its about having as normal as life as we can with both of you. I love you.


Miranda