just smile.
dispite how you really feel.
just smile and say "im fine"
because no one really wants to know
how misarible you feel.
pretend everything is just "peachy"
even though you all you want,
is to break down and cry.
cover up those tears with a smile.
because you dont want them to know whats wrong.
you dont want to go thru therapy.
dont want anyone to think your depressed.
even though its building up.
and you know you cant hold it inside forever.
no one will understand, so dont tell them.
laugh a little. or they might notice whats up.
now they're suspisious, hurry before its to late.
how'd you get into the counslers office?
burst out crying in class?
what happend?
couldnt you hold it in?
now you have "appointments" with the counsler?!
just had to go and let everybody know.
now you've lost your friends.
even failing the easiest classes.
given up on life yet?
now what are you doing?
your sitting in the counslers office all day,
every day.
what about high school? art school?
a career? now its all lost.
and your sitting in a room with other teens.
all who were or are crying,
at least you didnt cut yourself.
not like some of them, see the scares?
whats that sign say? "assylum"?
like, for crazy people? your not crazy.
your just sitting in a hole to deep to see light.
lost all your friends.
all your enemys.
all your family.
all of everyone.
now you sit in a room all day with other teens like you.
they wont say whats wrong, cant 'cuz they're to buisy crying.
how do you feel now?
if you had held it in for a bit longer you would have been fine.
just depressed? just?
not just. never just,
if you had told some one. anyone!
told them whats wrong without breaking down.
goodbye now. you dont need me anymore.
im tired of this never ending pain in you.
goodbye.
 XxhheartlessxX · Thu Jan 08, 2009 @ 09:32pm · 1 Comments |
