one word...
DEATH
yesh thats what i'd like right now. me and my friend got in a fight today... i was joking around and she took it personally. stare P.A.S.S testing going on and it sucks... but we has free times xD its no surprise your head hangs from my head your mouth can't sin or lie
sorry... just singing to myself... confused i hate life... how can the preps live all the way through life... how can they live? without suffering? no sign of Brady.... emo i just... life = hardship
i guess ninja ffuucckk i'm just a ******** 6th grader with no chance in life. v.v thinking everyday of all the mistakes i've made.... THOUSANDS of times... that i've got too many chances on... and that i'd never give up and wow Nik knew that that would happen... thats why he wanted us to just stay "friends" so that in the near future he doesn't get his heart broken again.. and wtf did i do? i interfered with that. just making that one mistake makes me a shitty person that doesn't know how to control life. i've read some of my past journals... and guess what? i was happy the happiest person in the world. its just silence in black and white... cry could you guess how much i'm crying in real life?? you couldn't... i can't. stephen still doesn't love me... no matter what he tries to do... NOTHING will work... i just wish he knew the pain inside which leads to a broken heart. sure he can snuggle with Brittany Linch if he feels... he can go ahead... he stole my heart and threw it away... so i never trusted anyone... people can trust me... but for some reason i haven't been able to trust back... which makes people worried. me and eleanor had fun today when we went outside to recess we turned on Amelia's ipod and a rap song came on and me and scarlett started dancing to it... it was hilarious because... it said some wordy derds eek lol... yesh those wordy derds xD. and we have to watch a GAYYYY movie in band class LOL... it is really really GAY. but we decided that no one was watching the gay movie so me and scarlett just listened to my ipod and pretended to be emo to see how many people came up to us... no one did lol. i actually went into the kitchen to get a knife... but then i thought of all the people who WOULD miss me... let's check some people off
NIK
STEPHEN
Brady
Eleanor
Scarlett
Amelia
so yeahhhh not a lot of people are my best friends...
dead memories in my heart
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