I don't why but for the first time my adopted sister Ahn hurt my feelings to where I actually cried for a long time. sad I still feel sad and I cried again. But there aint nothing much I can do about it. I don't what it's like to live in a different country just a different states. :'( But if she hates it this much then I feel we should send back home. I would rather her be happy in her country then live here in America and be miserable. But unfortunately I can't change what has been done, but only hope for better things in the future. I know she doesn't know that I was the first out of our family to say yes we should adopt her when my parents asked me. And that when my sister Bridget was saying bad things about her a while back that I stood up for her. And I told my family that she was a pretty good kid, and fairly nice. *Sigh* I guess that's what I get for opening my house, heart, and sharing my mind, feelings with her. Just to find out she might not like us, or hate my country just because a few people have done her wrong? I don't know but that's how I feel, and I won't look at her the same for a long time after this too. At that's how I feel right now. sad I feel real sad, and I might cry again. Not mention I keep thinking about what my Aunty Cherry said to me last weekend and few other weekends when I spent the night. Maybe I offended her and didn't know it, maybe I made her mad, and hurt her too. But all I wanted was their acceptance her and her brother. cry Just like how I got my family to accept her as I did. But I can't change the pass only future. sad Not mention I keep thinking about my grandpa Tavares which is on his possible death bed, I got really sad about that too. And being on my period doesn't help with the emotions of sadness. But anyways sorry folks about the depressing message here. I'm usually not like that as you can tell by some my other journal where I wirte a bunch of random things or about my day. But I can't stop crying today it seems, and it's bothering me really badly. So I think after I'm finish here I gatta deal with my sadness some how. sad So I'll ttylz!!!
~Kitty~
 kyeira chan · Fri May 29, 2009 @ 06:20am · 4 Comments |
