Sometimes I can be a pleasant person and hold together, but last night was not one of those times. I was just hit by everything that's messed up all of a sudden and I lost it. I admit that it's to be expected, I'm a teenager. This wasn't just a thing, though. I totally went bat-s**t insane and started SCREAMING into my pillow and crying so hard I couldn't breathe well. I was mostly mad at my mom, we never got along. Okay, we ******** hate each other and it's only a matte of time before on murders the other. I just like knew they wouldn't Wake up because my parents are heavy sleepers. It was just like "YOU ******** b***h! YOU'RE SUCH A SLUT GO AND ******** DIE!" More, yeah but I don't remember it all you know? I had a violent dream and woke up feeling better. I'll never be whole again, probably never even half, but I'm happy as long as there's the thread holding me together. But lately, it's been fraying.
 Beautiful Propaganda · Tue Aug 11, 2009 @ 03:33am · 0 Comments |
