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:sigh:
I thought I would be able to use it.. but.. gah. I forgot about the laundry. I guess I'll give it a shot until I get yelled again..
Ok first of all:
>@_@
BUNNEH I'M SOOOO SORRY THAT I SCRATCHED YOU TODAY!! IT WAS TOTALLY ACCIDENTAL THIS TIME, I SWEAR IT! GAHHH I'M REALLY SORRY!!!
>v.v Don't gotta forgive the sinful, tho.
Anyways, it's the New Year and I think I'll actually use my journal.. maybe modify it up and stuff. biggrin And I want to make my profile all pretty too! And my xanga..
My New Year Resolution
It was gonna be: to make people happy. But, I want to change it.. biggrin and modify it! lol, i'm using that word a lot.
I'm going to make people feel appreciated [that their kindness and presence] is appreciated and that the world really is a better place witht hem in it. Sometimes, I bet that certain people would make me regret having this resolution.. but I'm going to try. If Tohru can do it, I can too!
xD LMFAO.
Startin Anime/Manga of the Year of the Fire Doggie//Fire Shigure
Fruits Basket//Furuba
Yea-- since I watched the series, I've become obsessed. And now I want to ..eh..
become a better person.
Random Findings
Today and last night, I realized something..
I really have a big problem: my happiness is fueled by one person.
It really sucks, actually. Being -that- dependent on -one- person.
It's like, I'm not even living my own life-- since this one person is SO my reason to be happy.
:/ That has to change... it really does. It's been a problem for a while now, but last night I kinda just got really disgusted with myself. Every person, deep down at their core, wishes to be appreciated, acknowledged, and loved.
And when I felt that the one person of mine didn't do that for me.. I just got really upset. And lost it. Like I've done so many times before, to the other person that I used to really care about.
I want that person to live for me, and only me.. I want that person to hold on no matter how much I mess up his life. I want that person to say that I'm special, that I'm different- in a good way. In a way that he truly admires.
But I guess that's really selfish of me.
Eh, its so ingrained into me-- it's already so deep down that I don't think I can get rid of that wish easily.
>_< But ima try!! Since...I don't know why.
I don't even want to find a reason. I just want to try.
EDIT: Oh yeah, I forgot to thank those people who made ME feel special.
surprised You guys are awesome, I owe you everything.
 Fushiro · Wed Jan 04, 2006 @ 10:49pm · 4 Comments |
