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i live in the darkness...the darkness that the light cannot reach...i have tried and tried again to fill this emptiness, but alas, the more i try the more i am engulfed by it...to trust someone with ones heart is a mistake. it is true that the lucky ones obtain happiness from doing this but i am not as lucky as them....all i have ever felt was pain and fear...time and time again, and yet i never learn. this is where i reside now and for one it became comforting to me....to be alone with no one to turn to, no one to hurt me...i dare not smile any longer...for if i do, it will surely be the end... everyone would just blame me. i will always be broken, and to whoever dare fix me...dont...dont try to...i am only destined to be broken now and forever...you will get nothing but sadness and grief....besides, i am but an empty shell....my soul is long gone...i am a failure....nothing can fix me....