pretty muchly all last week i was like ******** this ******** that s**t totally forgetting about god and people i know and s**t like all i could think of was killing myself like what the ******** came in my body and destored me then i was driving in my car and i was like who the ******** am i this isnt me and i cunk whatever the ******** was in me that b***h is gone like i went to the exteme no lie like i relapped, ******** some person, and like went to my old self like damm yea like something has got to happen this summer or im just like s**t i dont know damm now im thinking about what the ******** do want cuz like i wanna be my old crazy a** self but hell no im better than that but like s**t i feel like normal you know average ok why the ******** am im bitchin quit bitchin
im exicited about this play thing am doing at church its like a bunch of mini stories about bullshit families or people and they took my idea on one but its not my life story yea the dad ends up killing the kid and his mom scary and then its like the people going to the gates of heaven before god and yeah its gonna be a good one but like the only part i got was being the bitches that take the nasty people to hell and then i yell like s**t like dont believe and im like this is go going againist god but i love him anyways