I don't have that.. soo.. my friend decided to talk too our other two friends.. the ones we have issues with.. and well.. she acted really matured and rational-- something I have to point out. well she took out of her chest everything.. she said everything she had to say.. while I just listened.. when I talked.. somehow I couldn't express my actual feelings toward them.. I was mad.. at them and at myself.. I couldn't stand yet I could barely speak a word. They didn't speak as much as my friend either. I didn't like how bitchy, one of them was acting. She was trying to stay strong like all of us, but she acted like she didn't care.. she didn't even want to have eye contact, she seemed like she didn't want to solve the problem, which made me even angrier... maybe she did it because we knew she was about to cry.
My friend who expressed herself very deeply.. who made things clear for them appologized at the end, which is very mature of her.. she cried later and said that she should just send everyone to hell, which makes me a bit mad 'cuz not everyone deserves that treatment, I've been there to support her all the time, as I can remember. Yet she kind of throws my friendship like something disposable. I still have accumulated anger.. wrath.. I REALLY WANT TO JUST SPEAK WHAT I'M THINKING, STRAIGHT FORWARD!! BUT SOMEHOW I CAN'T!!!! I hope someday God gives me enough strenght, courage and guts to do so..
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