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	Luminous .w. "Read, If you dare- your in for a scare!"- R.L. Stine, Goosebumps Don't worry- Im not as scary as I appear to be. I promise not to bite..hard. < 3

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Greetings, again. Damn it. I had a wave of nostalgia- and its not pretty. Despite the fact my friends completely pissed me off, harmed other friends including me out of anger, and yet I have a mass of want to be back years ago. When all of us were friends. One day, who knows- maybe we can all be friends again, just now is way to complicated for that. I know life isn't like that- but it's not wrong for a girl to dream, right? I miss them . I f-cking admit it. What the hell else does the world want me to admit?!?!? Why I feel remorse, who the hell knows. Im just pissed at..everything I guess. If there wasn't any damn questioning or b-tching about others- who knows, we could all be laughing and smiling at my house. I wont say I regret doing it, but I regret the way it ended. But don't we all? From the girl, Luminous----- Luminous_Clutter · Thu Jan 06, 2011 @ 01:22am · 13 Comments


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ii-Smiles-x
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Thu Jan 06, 2011 @ 01:29am

Well Witch Frends Pissed Chu Off? HOpe It Wasnt Meh! :[

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Thu Jan 06, 2011 @ 01:42am

No, it wasn't you. Sorry- should've been somewhat specific. Just pissed at how quick our group was split over a pety argument that turned ugly. Its okay to bicker evry now and then, but all the time? Was it even worthy to call it a group of "friends" when toward the end all we did was fight and split in two? I feel like a jackass for letting it end like this. What I told Tyler was all I held in, but wanted to say. I just didn't really ponder about it so much. Now I feel remorse. Pitiful, right?

From the girl,

Luminous-----

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Thu Jan 06, 2011 @ 11:08pm

Well Its life..Thats all i gotta say its pretty much this Tyler wants it to be like she wants it to happen and it will happen This Is Bull-Sh!t to me.But yes Regretful maybe..its jst...(blank) but i dont really know its I Want to be the friends that we use to be but all this b-iching bout all this is for nothing it was a long long time ago...

-Poohbear246(Nicole Haha..)
P.S. I Will Not Pick Sides This Time xD

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Sat Jan 08, 2011 @ 08:06pm

I hope it's not me that is stopping you from becoming friends with them again. If it is, well- why?

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Sun Jan 09, 2011 @ 05:47am

Don't worry about it, Vikki. Its just me thinking through it more. Memories, make me want to go back there- I want to be there again. (I f-cking love you, Weezer <3)

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Sun Jan 09, 2011 @ 06:13am

Well, you can always be friends with them again, I've made a decision that I never will, but, what's stopping you?[/color]

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Mon Jan 10, 2011 @ 01:09am

Im trying, but I just don't think it'll ever be the same. I know things have changed, and so have I- I'm just thinking about everything. One day- we can all look back on this and smile at how silly we all were. Lets see if you can recognize me tommorrow. wink

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Tue Jan 11, 2011 @ 12:57am

I was just a little suprised at how one day you wanted to go to a different high school just to get away, and now you want to be friends with them again. O.o

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Tue Jan 11, 2011 @ 01:06am

I know, Recently- A lot of choices I make are being emotionally affected due to the world pissing me off. Like how I want to move to my Grandmas, but the more I think about it- the less I truly want to. Like if Dad hadn't yelled at me for not cleaning up his room and the dishes when he tells me seconds before- Maybe I wouldn't be so angry to do them. Or if he hadn't crashed us into the center divider on the freeway earlier in this year, maybe I wouldn't panic and cry evey time I had to go on the freeway in the rain. I'm at battle with myself constantly and I tend to blame myself for the mistakes of my choices that were inevitable.

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Tue Jan 11, 2011 @ 01:16am

Just let me know when you make a final decision. Because, honestly, I find myself wondering if you'd rather hang out with them rather than me and Morgan sometimes.

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Tue Jan 11, 2011 @ 02:02am

But why would I want to hang out with them, when I chose you to be friends with in the first place? Sure, Im indecisive- but why would you think I'd do something like that? I want to be friends with them again, but its not a pick or die situation. If I were bored, I'd flat out say it. ._. I have fun with you two, I like being with you two- so why suddenly would I be bored?

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Tue Jan 11, 2011 @ 03:15am

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Tue Jan 11, 2011 @ 03:57am

Do I come off as that way? I don't mean to. I like relaxing in the outside lunch area with you two. And During break, you know where to find me ( library .w.)

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