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Dreaming again which is rare for me. I usually have nightmares, but even over the past few months I haven't been having anything. No nightmares, no dreams, just darkness, silence if anything. But over the past few days I've been having short dreams about random times in my life. Memories playing back to me, almost as if their trying to sum something up for me. Last night was hard for me emotionally, I haven't been that scared in a while & I haven't cried like that either. But I think what happened was the cause of me dreaming about you.
I dreamt that I was with you, we were so happy together. I couldn't believe it, even though I was sleeping I knew I was dreaming. When you looked at me and smile lovingly, I was able to reach out and touch your cheek without you disappearing. What made me smile was the fact that you were so warm to the touch. You wrapped your arms around me and pulled me against you tightly. I was so happy to have you near me, I didn't want the dream to end. I closed my eyes and learned my head against your chest, I could hear your heartbeat, strong and clear. I whispered "I love you" and you lightly kissed my hair and whispered it back to me.
I couldn't help but smile as he held my hand and walked me to the couch. He laid down first then I laid down next to him so we could wrap our arms around each other. Time seemed to slow down at that moment, the fireplace sparked as the flames danced along the wood. I could hear his even breathing and felt myself relaxing even more. His hand was sliding through my hair gently, lulling me into a safe slumber and I heard him say "I truly do love you." I felt myself smile but I also felt tears beginning to slip down my cheeks. I opened my eyes and sat up quickly only to see that everything was dissolving. His warmth was fading and the arms that were holding me had disappeared along with his soft voice and gentle touch.
My head fell in defeat and I felt myself laugh lightly but it soon turned into light cries. I wrapped my arms around myself to try to stop the shaking but it wouldn't. I just wanted this to end now, he was gone and like reality I was left alone again. I laid myself back down on the couch and pulled my knees up to my chest to try and stay warm. The tears continued to slip down my cheeks but I closed my eyes and pictured you were there with me. A small smile made it's way onto my face but then I woke up...
 Kanato · Thu Mar 03, 2011 @ 05:24am · 0 Comments |
