Todd Nicholas.
I want to make this the longest book ever because i want you to be in my life the longest. And i just wanted to let you know, i absolutely love you with all of my heart. You seriously mean the world to me. If i could i swear i'd spend every second of everyday with you. Theres just this thing about you that makes me want to be with you always. And when i mean always, i mean a l w a y s . And since you mean so much to me, i'll list out EVERY last thing i love about you;
"I said i'd never let you go & i never did . . .
. . . I said i'd never let you fall & i always meant it"
&3
1. You always tell me you love me.
2. You never act different around your friends.
3. You dont expect much out of me.
4. You never expect me to be perfect.
5. You accept my for who i am, and not for who im not.
6. Your always smiling and happy around me.
7. You make me feel like the happiest girl in the world.
8. Your never bugging me.
9. You never lie to me.
10. If you ever do, you promised to tell me you did.
11. You promised you would marry me.
12. You promised me that you would never leave.
13. You always tell me I'm beautiful.
14. Your never telling me what to do.
15. You allow me to be my own person, and not something you want me to be.
16. Your always telling me to keep my head up.
17. Whenever I'm upset you always cheer me up.
18. When I'm drowning in my own tears, you come right over.
19. Whenever i want to see you, you come over instantly.
20. You dont care about distance. If it involves seeing me, your there.
21. You always talk about the future, and how we'll still be together.
22. You make me feel wanted, like I'm supposed to be with you; and i love it.
You know how i said i'd do anything for you? I still mean it. I told you when i tell you that every single day, i actually mean it. I'm not the type of girl to just say things that arent true. Your basically the only thing i look forward to seeing. When i see you, i get so happy believe it or not. In the morning, when i walk threw those doors, i immidiatley think of you. Your all i want to see. And once i go into your arms, i never want to leave. Your absolutely 100% ALWAYS on my mind 24/7. And it will ALWAYS stay like that. Your my ONE love. The ONLY ONE. Imagine if i didn't have you, and you didn't have me. My life would be a living hell. Whenever somethings wrong, you immidiately call me, and ask whats wrong, even if i dont tell you right away. But eventually i tell you, and im working on it trust me. I'm trying to change for the better of us.
"A kiss is just a kiss. . .
. . .until you find the one you love."
Memories (& More to come) ;
- I remember when me and you were at the park at like 8:30, and some douche bag of a cop comes strolling in his little car, shines that damn bright a** light in our eyes, then walks over to us. He's like, "What are you guys doing here? You can't be here after dark." You, "Uhh.. We're just chilling i guess?" Me scared of of my mind, "Yeah...We'll just be going Mr. Officer Sir..." "Nope I'm gunna have to see some identification, and your gunna have to tell me your names and ages." Me (in my mind) "Awe s**t, we're screwed." You, "Uhh okay." You whip out your I.D and everything, and he turns to me and is like, "And you miss?" Me, "I dont have it with me..." Him, "I'm gunna need you to turn around sun and put your hands above your head." You turn around like, wtf... Then he starts feeling you up. LOL He doesn't even touch me! I could've been carrying s**t and he would've never known. Him, "Okay, i dont wanna see you guys around here any more. This is where kids like to come and drink and smoke, you know." "Yeah we do..." You. Me in my head, "LOLOLOL he got felt up by a MAN cop!" ;D And i love how when we we're walking away, we were all paranoid about him following us Lol i love you, and that embaressing 15 moments of our lives(:
- I remember when me and you were sitting on the bench, awkward and shy at first, but we both eased up on each other. At first, we never hung out. Only seen each other once or twice, never really talked to each other. But, i do remember the smile that was on your face every time i walked up to hug you, or poke you in the hall way. I dont know, i just love seeing you happy. When your happy, it makes me feel like im doing something right, and im not ******** everything up for once. I really dont want to lose you, because you obviously have no idea what you really mean to me. That day on the bench, had to have been one of the most happiest days if my life. (Well, that and the sweet little text of you asking me out) But, i remember sitting on the bench, inching closer and closer towards you. I looked down at your hand, seen that it was empty, and just wanted to grab it. But something was holding me back. That something, was my heart. I didnt want to grab your hand, as much as i wanted to, and have you think, "Why is she touching me..." Every time you looked over at me, my heart skipped a beat, and i swear i thought i was going to die then and there. But i managed to pull out okay(:
And, when we were in the grass, and you FINALLY pulled me in your lap, and grabbed my face and kissed me. And kissed me. And kissed me. But, the only thing i hated most was you kept stopping. I was thinking in my head, NO, dont stop! Lol. But if i said that you would have looked at me like, are you okay?(: But when it was time to leave, i SWORE to myself, you were the one. I knew then and there, i just wanted to be with you. I may not have told you, but i really did. I just want to jump in your arms, and stay there forever. I wasn't sure what to do. I didn't know if i should tell you that i like you, or if i should just keep my mouth closed because i knew you could find way more prettier girls. And i was also afraid you were the "Cheating" type. Ya know, the type to just hit on a girl, and leave. Although we've done that a couple of times, im glad all those times lead up to where we are now. Because without them, i doubt me and you would be together today. I'm thankful to have you in my life love, and i'll never let hold of you; keep me to that forever.
- I remember when me and you first went out to eat. Of course OUR place, Dennys. I was a little nervous, because i've never went out and ate with someone. Well, of course i've went out and ate with Devon and all my friends and all that junk, but ive never actually went by myself with someone. When ever me and devon went out, his parents would always have to come. But i guess it was because we were only 13 at the time and here i am, 15. Lol. But, i would have to say, you are my first REAL relationship. You've been my first everything. And when i was looking at you while i was eatting, i was perfectly comfortable. I'm not going to lie though, i hate eatting in front of guys that im not used to. I deffinetly wasnt used to being around you eatting, so at first i was a little nervous, and when im nervous and around food i tend to do stupid things lol. It was bad enough everytime you looked at me, i couldnt stop smiling, and my heart would litterally speed up 10x faster. And when i mean 10x faster, i really do mean 10x faster! One time it got so bad, i felt like it was litterally going to jump out my my chest lol. It's just this affect you have on me that i try so hard to control, but i just cant seem to do so. Your beautiful hazel eyes staring into mine, what more could i ask for? Absolutely nothing. &3
- I remember when we watched our first movie together, and i was TERRIFIED! Lol. This wasn't that long ago, but i thought i'd add it in here considering its another memory me and you both shared together. I love being in your big bear hug arms, i love when you wrap your arms around my waist, i love when you whisper in my ear and tell me you love me, i love seeing you smile only to see me smile back, i love when we're laying next to each other and you just keep staring into my eyes and grab my face and kiss me gently. You always know the right things to do, at the right times. And even at the most wrong times, for example, me crying, you always know what to do. Your always there when i need you, and like you said, your only a call away(: And that call turned into me and you watching our first movie together, and that happened to be saw -___- oh how i absolutely HATE those movies, but i said i wanted to watch something scary and you gave it to me! And i love how when we were watching the second saw movie in your room, i was just sitting there in your legs lol. I forgot i was sitting there, until your bear hug arms wrapped around me and pulled my head in, telling me it was alright and not to look. Even though, you know me and i kind-of looked anyways. EW it ripped his nipples off!!! Lol, hopefully that doesnt happen to me, if you remember our conversation on the phone (;
- I remember when me and you took a different way back to your house, and went through that long trail, just to see a fox that wound up running away and knowing me, i went to go chase the damn thing lol. I wanted it!(: But, the day was perfect. The weather was perfect. And it was even more perfect with you there. The skys were clear blue, and i absolutely love walking trails and stuff. I cant wait until we can do it all the time in a few months, thats something i really want to do so bad. That, and i really wanna go to ocean city(: I cant wait to go there, so i can add more memories to this. When this is finished, it'll be bigger then the bible! And, we'll call it history we made through. &3
- I remember when me and you went to the park and spent the whole night there, playing tag and chasing each other around. You wouldn't stop picking me up and tossing me here and there. I loved it. I love when you spin me around, because it makes me feel like im living one of those perfect-relationship movies. I've always wanted a relationship like that, and now, i dont have to wish anymore. Because now i have you. And now that i finally have you, theres no way in hell im letting you go. I mean, i've almost made the mistake and have let you go. Wtf was i thinking again? Why in hell's good name would i want to lose you??? Your perfect baby, i swear you are. From head-to-toe, inside-and-out. NOT A DAMN THING LESS. And i absolutely hate when you call yourself ugly, and make fun of yourself. You dont understand how frusterated that makes me feel. You KNOW its not true. I KNOW FOR A FACT its not true. It never will be. Even when we're 90 & dying, slowly, gradually, but holding hands all through the way, never letting go. &3
- I remember when me and you first went bowling, and at first, i was beating the CRAP out of you! But then, you caught up and won... all three times... -_- It's okay, i already called a re-match. I was just uh, too tired that day ;D
Haha jk. But that was basically our first time doing "something" together, besides going out to eat. It was really fun, i love how competitive you get, when your loosing your facial expressions all like, "WTFFF" lol. But your my competitive wittle baby(;
- I remember when we went out to eat with your cousin, and i ate like 3 shrimp and a lot of fries, when it doesn't even look like i ate at all. And he's all like, damn girl, do you eat at all? And i was like, yeah... He's like, your getting as worss as todd! Skin & bones! And i was like, i'd rather be skin and bones then pounds and pounds of fat blubber. Lol. But my favorite part of that day, was leaving and going to walmart. We didn't even go to walmart like we we're suppose to because you thought it was closed for some reason, because your a dummyyyyyyy! Jk, i love my bb&3 You kept spinning me around and grabbing me, and you pushed me up against the wall, put my hair behind my ears, grabbed the back of my head gently, and just kept kissing me. I love how you don't care if anyone see's if we kiss. We could just stop in the middle of the hall way in school, and you would just kiss me. You also don't care that im younger then you. I really thought you wouldn't want to be with me because of how much younger i am then you. It may not be a lot, but 11th grade girls are just so much damn prettier then me. I mean, i look at myself, then back at you. Major differences. But yet, you say you dont care, you want to be with me. You want to stay with me because you love me for myself. I remember you told me, you dont care about them other girls. No ones like me. And yet, i dont see anything different about everyone else, well that is besides the looks. And you tell me im beautiful everyday, when your the one thats absolutely adorable &3 I love you baby, forever & always. 10-15-11 &3
- I remember when i was pissed off at my mom, and jessie. That one day, was just TOO much for me. But, you picked up the football, looked at me with a straight face, said, "Just do it." I grabbed it so fast, and beamed it at your chest as hard as i could every single time. Some times i even missed you because i was too furious and i was throwing it too hard. When i throw things really hard, i lose aim. But the point im trying to make is, your always there for me when i need you. You didnt have to pick up the football and tell me to throw it at you. No one else would have let me do that to them, for damn sure. Your all i think about anymore, and all that i was to think about. Your all mine, and nothing less.
- I remember, even though it was today, that me and you got into one of the biggest fights ever. So big, i was litterally pushing youi off of me, and wanting to just punch you, over, and over, and over again. I dont know, but it triggered my emotions so much. You kept telling me you werent going to break your promise, you wont, you wont, you wont... But, you kept doing it. You kept asking me if i was going to break up with you, i wasnt going to. And thats one thing that was making me even more mad at you. I wanted you to stop saying that, but i didnt want to tell you that thats what was wrong with me. I know, im hard headed. I try. I try SO much more then you may realize, its just so hard. Im so stubborn, and i cant control it sometimes. That whens you need to grab me, shake me, tell me to shut up, and listen. Its what you got to say sometimes to grab my attention and make me think that not everything is about me, and i should know when i got something good before its long gone, and i cant just reach out and grab it and pull it back. /i'm not going to lie, it makes me mad when you keep promising me things, and breaking them. I dont want to keep doing this. I dont want to keep arguing with you. I dont want to start stupid little things when you dont do anything, most of the times. But sometimes you really do, do stupid things that trigger my emotions. Im a very emotional person, and im trying to change that. Im trying to change myself for the sake of our relationship. You dont understand how much you mean to me. And no matter how much i say "no" whenever you ask me something, you dont know how MUCH i just want to scream yes off of the top of my damn lungs. Theres just little stupid voice in the back of my mind that says, dont give in. Fight. Go ahead. Dont listen to any one but yourself. I really dont want to be like this. This kills me inside. I try and listen to you, and that voice at the same time. Its so difficult to listen to two things at the same time, without knowing which one to chose. I desperatley want to chose you. My HEART chooses you. My head tells me know, but that heart of mine, pulls you in, and says, NO. You let this boy go, your letting all of your heart go. You will make the BIGGEST mistake of your life by letting him go. Never do it, please. And i never want to do it, so please just, just dont do anything for me to let you go. And, i PROMISE, i will never let you go, just tell me, as long as we're together, we'll keep trying, and trying, no matter how hard headed we might get. If we keep trying, and not give up, we're showing each other we're strong. We're willing to fight for each other because we know our love is the strongest thing in the universe. No one, and no-thing, will EVER get in the way of us babe. I promise you. I Love you. And always will.
Kassandra Celene Rose Tyc . . .
- Sounds perfect to me & 3
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Todd Nicholas Tyc - - - Eye Love You <3
Sometimes i wonder why you stick around.
I wonder why you even put up with me sometimes.
But then, i realize that you put up with me because you love me.
Love.
I never thought i'd ever find it.
But then, there was you.
When i was at my worst time, you came along and fixed everything. All that free time i had, i spend with. And, i couldn't find a better way to spend it, then with you. You have to be one of the most amazing people i've ever met in my life i swear to you. You (believe it or not) were the first person to ever give me a necklace. You actually, gave me my first christmas present. Speaking of christmas, we never really got to see each other that day, but not a second went by that you werent on my mind baby. Your everything that ive ever wanted. And now that i have everything, theres nothing more i could ask for.
But you want to know what i love doing? Looking into those georgous hazel eyes of yours! Your amazing, and i wish every night i could look up into those eyes and say i love you, and good night. Sooner or later, me and you will be together, and i will be able to look into those eyes every night. Just picture it. Me and you, laying right next to each other, every single night. We wouldn't have to worry about not seeing each other. We wouldnt have to worry about missing each other. We wouldnt have to constantly call each other because we would be laying side by side. I need your arms around me every single night. I love your arms around me. I love laying with you. I love feeling you breathe on my neck, because then i know your there with me. I love when you whisper in my ear, you love me. I love when you say good night over the phone, as much as i wish you were right next to me saying it. You have stolen me, what more can i say. But i know that i can say, you have taken my heart right out of my chest, and locked it up safe with yours. So now i know when you leave, you leave with my life. They say a heart is the main source of life. Without my heart, i have no life. No life is worth living with out you in it. And i chose to always have you in my life, whether you like it or not(even though i know you do) But the whole point im trying to make is, dont try and be perfect. Dont try and impress me. Baby, you are already perfect, inside and out. I promise you, from the time i wake up to the time i go to sleep, you are always on my mind and always will be. You see these hands of mine? You know, the ones that fit perfectly with yours? Well their empty right now, and longing for yours to be on top of them. And, i know i said try and not promise me things you cant keep, but i want to know if you can keep a big promise like this:
Promise me, no matter how much we argue, no matter how much we fight, no matter how much i just want to walk away, you wont leave, and you WONT let me leave. I want someone to be there for me when i need them. And when me and you argue, i NEED you to be there for me, telling me your not leaving. If i say im leaving, grab me by my head and TELL me i CANT. Because i know i say alot of things out of anger. And if i say that, and you give in and lose me, and i lose you, i have made the BIGGEST mistake of my life. I Never want to think about losing you. I never want to have to lose you. And i never will, as long as you promise me. Thats all i want is for you to promise me. And hopefully you will.
I also want you to know, ill always be here. Whenever you need me, like you said, im just a phone call away. I would COME TO YOU if you desperatly needed me, or just wanted to see me. I'd do anything for you. Why? Because i LOVE you. People tend to do stupid things when they've fallen in love. But i know one decision i've made that will never be stupid or regreted, and thats falling in love with you. I love you baby, and hopefully you'll soon realize whenever i say it, i truelly mean it. And now i think this is the end, until i add more to it(: I love you T.N.T, forever and always &3
Did i also mention, you make my heart go B.O.O.M? ; )
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