What do I want right now? Peace and frickin' quiet. A little bit of time for me to be alone in my house, to do my own thing. My mind's been on overdrive, and my family doesn't seem to respect that. I don't even get a day off. It's either work, or summer school, or a combination that takes up an entire day. Then when I get home, mom sits on her a** blasting the tv, and tells me to clean the kitchen. I just want to rest for a little bit! No tvs or anything! No lil sister shouting for me to come downstairs to see a stupid amv she found. A day off from work and everything for just me! It's killing me on the inside! KILLING ME!!! My ind is continueing on overdrive, and all I get from my family if I state I want to be left alone, is stress! When I say I want to be left alone to my dad, he just bitches at me and calls me spoiled. Because I want to be left alone. I can feel my insides self destructing- literally. My health has been slipping rapidly, with frequent barf trips to the bathroom, and my entire body in pain! I can't tell if it truely has to do with my state of mind, but as I slip away mentally, so seems my physical condition. I have been trying to find ways away from reality recently, and daydreaming doesn't seem to be enough, because sooner or later, I can't help but be interrupted by the people that I want to get away from.
EchoetheCoon Community Member 
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