I doubt that anyone will ever read this, or if anyone will care.
I came home today after being out with one of my friends, this is always something that causes anxiety because I never know what I'm walking in to.
I walkin and the first thing that happens is that my dad tells me that my mom is in a bad mood because she had run into the dishwasher when it was pulled out.
I thought that was the only thing wrong, but I don't think that that is what is wrong. I don't know, but my mom gets so that she won't twll me whats wrong.
So my mom goes to bed and I am watching television/studying. Well, my dad had left and gone to the Y; and he came back. So I'm still doing the same thing. All of a sudden my dad yells at me to close something--I couldn't hear what.
So I go out there to see what it is he wants and he says that I need to close the door to the study because he didn't want to hear me cracking sunflower seeds. I say, "Okay, fine; whatever". Suddenly he just blows. He starts asking me why I am such a Jerk and how I am so rude. He goes on to tell me to go and shut the door. I go back into the sstudy and close the door. Well, he comes in after me after I have sat down and starts telling me that I need to be more respectable and that I should remeber that I'm 19, and that if I don't watch it I will be out on the street. I ask him if he is going to hit me becuase he is red in the face and is walking around and gesturing wildly, he says that if he wanted to hit me, he would have.
I really don't know what to do. I keep on trying to tell my self that I shouldn't blame myself, but I just believe it. I don't know what to do. I'm afraid to go out there.
 Jaded Tatersalad · Wed Oct 18, 2006 @ 04:47am · 0 Comments |
