If anybody must know I'm Sick of this crap and I'm sick of people who think there life is going to be prefect because they found some new girl.
Life not going to be perfect. I know I haven't screwed mine up compleatly... infact.. I know I've screwed it up enough that I have to take Science again in grade 11. I think i'm Pathic. in some ways.. Theres nasty rummers about me that I believe I didn't desiver to get in the first place because I had helped those people.. maybe I should go see the counslor.. because I'm starting to think maybe if I died the world would be better.. I mean it didn't affect my family much when I had ran away from home.. for a couple of days.. they didn't even care if I was there or not.. I'm just there babysitter that they have for cheep I mean Cheep.. normaly you have to pay somebody over 100 to babysit in this town but I do it for 25$ and for as long as you need.. ya I geuss I kinda do sound pathic.. I keep haveing a recurring dream that I'm at the high school on the football feild and somebody comes and slashes my thoart.. in away.. I geuss that could happen because.. my best friend Kp was around at the time in the city and right now she moved away.. so I doubt that going to happen untill april march.. right now I feel like my gut is in my thoart.. and people have thought I've tried to hurt my self my Damn cat sratches look like I cut my self.. some people think I'm gonna slit my wrists.. maybe I should it dosn't matter much.. of course I would dissapoint my other friend who going threw a hard time himself.. I mean he came out durring highschool you gotta be really brave or dumb.. and he a Genious so he really brave in order to do that.. he moved away in grade 3-4. But this is just me rambling on. Life just plan sucks.. Who am I kidding maybe I should just finsh grade 10 and die.. or least do something horble and hide.. The only guy I had a chance with my ex named chris .. he was the only guy I really really really cared for.. and he had to go and lie to me about moveing.. it seems that when ever I get close to somebody they move.. and I'm just staying in one place.. maybe I should let some manica go and kill me... it be alot quicker if they did it then I would.. I'm not sure about anything anymore.. I just plan in enjeral hate my life.. I've been haveing frequent nightmares.. I even had a dream about school and thats just a nightmare of it self..
thats all I'm writeing from now..
bye for now I geuss untill I feel like rambling on again.
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