So another day begins. Well it's actually 11:30 for me, but I woke up an hour ago. Lets see, well I'm on the metro. HOW EXCITING, eh? No not really, just a bunch of people afraid to look at eachother for a half an hour. That's why I've decided to start writing stuff on my rides back and forth, granted I get a seat. Well, lets get the personal stuff out of the way.
First off the preasure to get a job hasn't been greater. Luckily I have one place to call and get an interview. I hope, hope, hope that it works out because I'm sick of being poor and having my parents constantly nagging me. On the other hand, it was fun having all that free time and finding ways to get free stuff. AND in time I hope to get a car of my own. Hm, let me make a list.
1. get a job
2. save lots of money
2. buy a cheap car
4. save lots of money again
5. move out with friends
6. still have enough to pay for bills and food.
This way my parents control over me will slowly dwindle. My father can't deny me car privilleges, I won't have to ask for money and be in debt with them, and lastly when I move out I can still have that fun and no stress. Because that's all I get at home, no fun and lots of stress. So I definantly plan on calling today.
Next on my list is health. I actually have a physical today which is good. I'm afraid that I'll be showing physical side affects from the treatments I got when I had cancer. Sure it's been like 12 years since then, but given enough time some things can hapen. I'm most afraid of loosing my right eye honestly. I feel that it's probably the most important part that will be affected. Though I'm sure my brain will develope some problems. I have a feeling my heart might have some issues too. Like maybe it's enlarged or something. Plus being worried about how my jaw is frwoing, I think that's why I've been getting a lot of head aches lately. So the physical will be the beginning of possibly fixing all of these potential problems. The best thing would be if it's all in my head and nothing but minor issues arise.
Now for something completely different. I've been listening to this band called "Type O Negative" and they're awesome. I'm glad Chris Ray told me to get there CD. It's like, really slow but heavy and hard. Probably my favorite type of music. The guys voice is so deep too it's so cool. And if you actually listen to the lyrics it's the most rough, sexual sounding stuff I've heard. Makes me wish I could just write like that or be an incubus. Man it's awesome. Once I get money I can't wait to get more of these CD's. I think I might get some "Venus Walk" too. They're really good. For other stuff I'm consulting Chris Ray.
moving on to some more personal stuff. This will be short I think. Basically, I think it's getting to me that I'm 19 and girlfriendless, as in STILL. Since from when I was born even. It's probably that I'm too picky or too shy. And in having no experience this late in the game I can't help but feel ********. If I were to have one though, I think she would need to be a teacher type. Willing to teach me things, not in it for the long run I guess. Just someone to boost my confidence. But only someone willing, I don't want a tool, or to be one either. Sounds a lot like a personal ad really...
Ray out.
 melidserke · Wed Feb 23, 2005 @ 04:18am · 0 Comments |
