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<center>Yes, i am sure that if you know me you have heard of Smith. if not, well.. Smith is someone.. i see as really close to me.. in a way. he is close yet distant. i trust him with my feelings, but i only talk to him once a week. better then nothin, right? right.
Smith is So hot.. he is the best too. he may seem mean, but he is really cool. Smith isnt his first name, its like Aaron, but i am not sure if i am spellin it right, so i jus call him Smith, or Myk. dont ask where myk came from..
He is the dude that leads my group in ROTC. he's strong, a good leader, yet willin to listen to people's problems.
He and two other people on the entire world know the most about me. one is in Canada, the other in Louisiana. i trust these people with everything. i know they wont let me down. if they do.. well.. thats the end of everything. i am hoping maybe smith can help me with a few personall matters. maybe he can, maybe he cant. might aswell try.. and it gives me someone to really talk to. hard not to stare at him..
maybe he wont think i am crazy. i just get so nervous when i think of it.. he knows so much about me, and at any time he could turn me in as unstable,and completly ruin my life. thats a big risk. someone with so much power and knowledge. he could tell Lt. Mathews, who could remove me from ROTC, then contact my parents, have me put on medication and walking around as a zombie for the rest of my life, or worse, in a loony bin, unable to talk to those i care about most. see now why i am nervous? i hope so. i feel sick jus thinkin about it. maybe he wont let me down. same for Daniel, or Dabby, and Myk, my friend in Canada.
we'll have to wait and see.. so far so good.
today i went to a carwash, for my rotc group. i don think i did too bad. i was there from 8:30 am to 1:30 pm. about 5-6 hours.. dont ask me to do math. i suck at it. it was HOT outside. it was humid because it was about to rain, plus the air is always humid here in Arkansas. oh well. i jus wish i had tennis shoes.. i only own boots that weigh 10 pounds each. oh well. i almost punched Smith, but i controled myself. i didnt get near him. he ignored me the whole time. *sigh* oh well... maybe he is tryin to avoid me.
rockin to my music. i need this stuff to stay sane. just get lost in the pure, clear notes, carfully written with the greatest care, with long hours by talented song writers then carried out by those with the Voice of Gods and the musical talents of those behind the scenes, then recorded with the right equipment, maintained on a fast-running website ((launch)), and played on my speakers.. yes. i thank them all. right now i am listenen to "My Happy Ending" by avril lavigne. one of the purest songs i know. the perfect notes, right tones, everything. i listen to it through www.launch.yahoo.com check it out sometime. its awesome. thats all for now. b'bai.
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 Silver_Flame118 · Sat Sep 25, 2004 @ 09:43pm · 0 Comments |
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