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I'm on a quest to explain myself. Not necessarily to the world, but to myself. A feeling of loneliness could not be explained in a sentence (unless a run-on), but to get the full details, paragraph upon paragraph are a necessity. What feelings are stored, what events cause impact, and what can I explain?

Work/internships I can't get a job nor can I drive. Why? Because I'm 15. I can't get my permit till the end of the month and I can't work for money until at least winter break. I hate feeling useless, but lately that's all I feel. No one wants a stupid little girl to work for them. I had to turn down Shakespeare because I couldn't commute and they won't offer housing like last year. I can't work anywhere else, because most are too far. I was thinking of working for gaia's intern program until I went to map quest and saw that they're around great mall. Even if I took a bus, that would take me almost an hour to get there with all the stops. If I could drive, it be only about half an hour, but I'm not that damn lucky. Nope, I feel cursed. This summer won't be a happy one. Maybe because I see this as a start of my life that I'm trying so hard to find work for a least a month or two. Maybe this is just paranoia or something. If I can't get work now, whose to say if I'm capable of finding a job after college, it'll probably take me a year or two just to find a side job. I want to work, to know I'm capable of it. Youth is just tying me down. It's because of my age that I can't work, can't drive and can't LIVE! Perhaps my need to be involved with humanity is what's driving me up this crazy wall graffetied with the words, "FIND A JOB!" or maybe it's because I don't want to sit on my a** all day doing nothing. I don't know what it is, all I know is that I really want something to do this summer.  midnight-mystic-dragon · Mon May 07, 2007 @ 06:15am · 1 Comments	midnight-mystic-dragon Community Member «Prev | Next» Archive | Home [04/14/08 07:16am] [04/13/08 05:40am] [03/17/08 06:15am] [03/04/08 01:46am] [02/26/08 02:08am] [02/12/08 07:12am] [10/29/07 07:22am] [09/10/07 07:09am] [06/26/07 05:58am] [05/07/07 06:15am]
User Comments: [1] I know the feeling toria, i really do. It took me a long time to find anything i could do, and when i finally found something, its 2 hours a week. THe only thing i can think of telling you is that, while its a while off, its easy to get around the under-age issue at fanime, and i'm sure you can think of things to sell. Most things take a while to make, and if you can get the funding to get started, i'd recomend working on making things this summer. Even if you decide to do art, get started making some really really awesome prints. Have you tried the pet store down by holywood video? I'm told that they hire younger people, and the bus ride there wouldn't be too horrible, i wouldn't think. Theres also volunteering at the public library, which, while it doesn't pay, would get you out of the house and doing something. Keep in mind that i do believe you only have to be 15 and a half to do the drivers education part of driving, you might look into doing that over the summer as well.   Offline  kochi~mochi · Community Member · Wed May 30, 2007 @ 11:29pm
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