My Ex-crush found about Kriss because my stupid brother started to chat with him when I was gone and spit the whole thing out. Now, you might be thinking right that, "OH! She's a 2 timer!" WEll, I'm not. If I told him about Kriss he would be heartbroken. Actually......I did break his heart. sad I wasn't even thinking until now! I must be such a horrible person, but what could I do? He was worrying me too much and I was depressed because of him. But that gave me no right to break his heart. DAMN! WHAT'S WRONG WITH LIFE! ALL THAT ONE WILL DO IS END UP CAUSING PAIN TO ANOTHER INDIVIDUAL, NO MATTER HOW MUCH THEY TRY NOT TO.
Why did G-d have to create love, crushes and all these other emotions. I'm afraid I'll never get married because something will go wrong with me. My Ex-crush is always asking about Kriss, "How's Kriss?" "How are you and Kriss?" "Look I'm Kriss!" On Tuesday he came to visit school. The only words he directed to me was, "Hi!" and then he left. Then some of my guy friends invited me into a group chat and there was this girl there named Kate. He's all like, "Hey, have you met my GF, Kate?"
Between you and me, HE NEVER EVEN MET THE GIRL!!!!!!!!!!! Then he came to School on Thursday! We didn't even talk and he was in front of my face! When I got home and saw him online, I pounced on him. I was giving him such an attitude. I said, "What's been going on with you lately? What do you care how Kriss is? Why is it that you come to School to visit us and then leave five minutes later? You never did that before! And why is it when I say Hi to you, you ignore me? Did I do something wrong? Are you mad at me?"
He replied saying, "On Tuesday I was in a bad mood and Thursday , I had to go to the mall with Mani (our friend!)." I continued, "And you being a total complete snob to me for being angry is all right?" I then signed out. I saw him online today and he didn't IM me. Right there, my heart shattered. The fact that I don't like him in that way is fine but I still love him dearly as my friend. I don't want another guy to break us apart. Kriss is really sweet to mean andcares for me a lot, but I never stopped to tink about my Ex-crush and how he would feel. I need advice. cry
~Kagome
P.S.: I'll write more when something happens. cry
 ~Haruhi-kun~ · Sat Apr 02, 2005 @ 06:15am · 0 Comments |
