- I find that an odd way to live... I mean I get it...
I've never been put in such a situation though. I guess that's why I find it odd...
For some reason.. I've never had anyone really actually hate me..it's...quite creepy actually.. I mean.. sure I've had some fights with people..and of course fake ones but..no one has hated me.. I'm always the one hating people..and now that i think about that.. I feel kinda bad.. although i had reason for hating those people... still.. "Treat thy neighbor as you would have them treat you"...karma..it's gonna be a b***h later eh..and i think it's started to be one now.. heh..
Thinking about this reminds me of 7th and 8th grade... 7th grade me and thompson were always at each others necks..and we had no reason for this.. before in elementary we didnt even speak to each other save the times our parents talked... but then he just..pissed me off and i lost it..so for the whole year we were at it.. then..8th grade...he shocked me... he honest to god did.. i..broke down crying and...he cheered me up. i never felt more stupid in my life..someone who i hated and thought was the biggest jerk..helped me get through a real tough time.. He took the time to do that too.. I mean..he was with his friends..he coulda just kept talking to them and ignored me..and that's what everyone, save my friends, did.. but he..talked to me.. I remember his words clearly.. he said "Don't worry about what everyone else says Cheyenne! you were great!" heh.. i didn't do so well but..it was nice to hear those words.... -sigh- I would never be able to forgive myself if I were to hate him again.. but we're on good terms now so i doubt that'll happen.
-sigh-..now i lost my train of thought..
Well..essays are done... just...yea..now i'm getting kinda emotional thinking about thom... It's weird though.. i obsess so much over that time that you'd think i may have a crush on him or something..but no i just..really am grateful that happened... i mean..if that never happened me and thom probably wouldn't be talking and i'd still kinda hate him.. well yea..got that out of my system. I know theres no way in hell he can read this too so yaaay
LUV YA THOM! YOU REALLY TRULY HELPED ME OUT THEN! I OWE YOU MY LIFE! <3
heh.. anyway yea... it's 9 40..don't really feel like typing much else... i guess...
Yea..I'll stop now..
~<3...</3...<3....</3....
