I have witnessed how most relationships come and go during a person's few years on this planet. Some go easily and others unravel after years (this one is the hardest one to go through) but when the friendship was doomed from the beginning one has to understand that this will eventually happen as it does for all. It is a cycle that never ceases to end, perpetual.
For me, it is difficult to converse with new people, let alone create a friendship with them. It might seem that I have a lot of friends but this only occurred because of the passing years in school. They are merely acquaintances that were, I guess you could say "collected" during that time. Many of them I have yet to learn about, there are only quick "hellos" and "goodbyes" and maybe a short conversation on something that happened earlier that day but nothing more. No sharing of "past experiences" or "personal information".
There are few that I connect with, that I feel a great bond with and actually want to pursue a lasting friendship with. Hmmm, last year and the begining of this school year I was part of this small social group (aren't we all) and had long unrelenting thoughts that they didn't really like me or want me there. They made me feel inadequate, small, as if I had no voice to express my thoughts or emotions. But after analyzing their behaviour and knowing how they were I decided to leave the group and try to find better companions of which would actually care about me instead of just themsleves. Though the new companions I made are few, I have a strong connection with them and trust them with everything as I hope they do too. They are my truest friends and better than family.
For me, it is difficult to converse with new people, let alone create a friendship with them. It might seem that I have a lot of friends but this only occurred because of the passing years in school. They are merely acquaintances that were, I guess you could say "collected" during that time. Many of them I have yet to learn about, there are only quick "hellos" and "goodbyes" and maybe a short conversation on something that happened earlier that day but nothing more. No sharing of "past experiences" or "personal information".
There are few that I connect with, that I feel a great bond with and actually want to pursue a lasting friendship with. Hmmm, last year and the begining of this school year I was part of this small social group (aren't we all) and had long unrelenting thoughts that they didn't really like me or want me there. They made me feel inadequate, small, as if I had no voice to express my thoughts or emotions. But after analyzing their behaviour and knowing how they were I decided to leave the group and try to find better companions of which would actually care about me instead of just themsleves. Though the new companions I made are few, I have a strong connection with them and trust them with everything as I hope they do too. They are my truest friends and better than family.
