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Have you ever had one of those days when you are so depressed that as you stare at the light in your ceiling, you feel such sadness that you want to cry, but you just think, how futile it is to cry?

Yea, that was a fun day. Let me tell you all that has happend to make that day so special. First, I've entered me and my friends into a little activity at our school, where we hang out for 24 hours and walk around a track. It is to promote being drug free, and all of the other rot that is ment to come with anything talking about being drug free. Now what is wrong with this is that we need two "parent coordinaters" for this little team of mine. What I have done, is signed up two of my friends as the coordinaters and that isn't allowed in the rules. It isn't the rules that is bothering me, it is the fact that my friends have been really looking forward to it and I feel bad that it might not happen. Even worse if the event really doesn't happen.

Now let us add the fact the girl I had been dating broke up with me that day too. She said that she really wasn't ready to have a boyfriend, and said that she really really likes me. Now rejection isn't a new thing for me. I've tried a few times to get a girlfriend and they all seem to say the same thing. But this time it sort of felt diffrenet, like this could be Amor love, not just Agipa or Eros. But I could simple be confused, being that she has been the girl that I've been dating the longest.

So yea, I can't say that was a good day, but I get to look forward to waking up everyday to me feeling like s**t and having a random bodypart hurt, just to prove I'm alive.

I feel sick