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Oh. My gosh. It's been roughly six hours and I am still spazzing out about this. We had the nerve damage, fine. We had the rash, still fine. WE DO NOT HAVE MY TOE FEELING DISCONNECTED. This is not fine. I want an X-ray. NOW. But I don't fit in to the stupid schedule. And mother won't arrange another meeting. And I have YET another surgery Friday. Add to all of this my Christian religion, my exaggerative nature, and then just the fact that my brain works very different from yours in a very similar manner(commonly referred to as "wired differently." And no, you will never live that down, I love that too much), you begin to see my dillemma.

But wait. Let's pretend a random newbie comes in, clicks the first journal seen, and actually wants to know what I'm talking about. This is purely for my ego here.
I had surgery a month and a half ago. Great hoopla, had my toe straightened, hooray for ten more years of dancing. But wait! Drugs don't fix my pain. *gasp* What could this be?! Nerve damage. Itty bitty bit grows back every month. Or maybe doc just stitched it wrong and pinched a nerve, and it'll go away. Skin nerves are so tiny, anyway, right?
All right, ladida, right? Wrong. Three to four days ago, I developed a nice rash. I like to call it my skin bubbling, because that's what it looks like. We still don't know what it is. Okay, so keep all foreign elements away from my foot, wrap it in gauze, and sooner or later it'll go away(are you beginning to be disturbed by doctor and parent attitudes yet? Or am I just paranoid). Whatever. Finally done whining, right?
No. My nerve damage pain is back. Either that, or I can feel my blood pumping through my veins, and my skin bubbling up and that my toe is no longer connected by bone to the rest of my foot.

I am tired. My eyes grow obstinate, they demand closure, locking up for the night. But I am avoiding entering the bathroom. Partly because the blood will pool in my foot and it will be painful, but mostly because the oral rinse I've been given burns my mouth for a solid three hours after I take it. I've taken it twice.
Yes, I am this messed up, now please run away, or make me a sign or something. It's a journal, you're supposed to expect details you did not prefer to read, did you not? Of course you didn't. Now, to quote Scar from a Disney film. "Run away, and never return." Yes, I'm hyper and know that you're only reading this if you know me, but as usual, I'm agitated by a lack of comments. Read my snipped version on LJ. I update it on two occasions: emergencies, and nano notes.
'Yasumi.