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i've liked alot of guys, but i'm the kind of type to get really shy around them. usually i'm outspoken and you cant shut me up but when it comes to a guy i like i just stay quiet and stay their friend. i guess you could say i'm pretty when i acturally put on nice loooking clothes, which is what i'm doing now a days (I needed to try something new). well alot of guys are hitting on my and like me and ask me on dates and stuff and i just recientally found out that i cant do it. i'll never be able to go on an actural date. for some reason it scares me ... alot. i guess its cause when i was smaller i was hurt alot, not physicall but emotionally and because of that i'm so scared to get close to people. i never act like how i really am. i've guarded my emotions for so long its become just about impossible for me to show them, even happiness. and now the worst thing has happened the man i love most, the one who got me to open my heart and showed me how to express my emotions, i really dont think he loves me anymore. we havent talked for a long time, months, and i think things have changed between us and just to even suggest it makes me cry. i dont think i'll be able to handle anything anymore if he doesnt love me. i've been hurt so many times that i'm so scared to ask him if he still loves me. i... i just dont know what to do anymore.