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I was put on medication for my depression...and it made my symptoms worsen to an extent of unbearable. My evil thoughts dramatically increased.

If I were to compare my Depression with the balances of Good and Evil, my light would be nothing more than a single ray of divine purity. My darkness; a ravinous unholy beast! I feel that my heart, body and mind are being consumed by the seemingly endless gauntlet of Chaos that rages within my soul. With every continueing moment these feelings increase and so does the darkness. I feel that at any time the oblivious creature will burst out into the world and I would no longer exist...

My inner demon, more dreadful and ominous than that which reside in all the seven hells will someday rule my being and I will be nothing more than a memory.

This is how my depression makes me feel. I don't know what to do anymore...please, help me conquer this vile demonic spirit that inhabits my soul so I may again be happy...