Things aren't always what they seem. On the outside I seem like a cold heartless b***h who really doesn't care what is said about her. Things are not so. That is why over the summer I decided no more unfasionable geek girl. Goodbye nerd, her comes neew me! I am complete with stylish clothes, cute chunky plastic glasses + contacts for certain days and blond highlights. Wow, now people wont reconize me. At first i was happy, being complimented by my middle school friends and getting wisked away into popularity. Every teens dream. I loved the attention and perks. Everyone knew me, sourounded by hot guy, got to go to paryts and looked pretty doing it. Dont get me wrong, I missed my old friends, but this was much better. However it wasnt long until my smile became fake, my attention tiring and the boys shallow. I wanted so much to get out of this superficial life which was so attractive from the outside. I no longer wanted the gossip from th populars, but hugs and boring conversations from my friends. Thats when I made my desion. Thats when I did what no one else would ever do. I would go back to being a geek.
The next day I walked into school with my hair down, wearing baggy clothes and geeky glasses. I made myself unwanted by the preps and jocks. Everything was going smoothly. Or so I thought. I was going to find my friends and when I did I thought they would welcome me back with open arms. I spotted them across the cafeteria and picked my way through the crowd with my tray in my hands. Thats when I saw something that made my heart sink. They had replaced me. Before they saw me I headed out of the cafeteria and towards the closeest ladies room. I found an empty stall and sat down on the toilet, eating my lunch in seclution. For a week I had done this before I gather my courage to confront my ex-friends.
"Guys, let my explain myself.....I know you hate me, but please hear my out." I begged. No one even acknoledged my presance. "I was a complete b***h, but I really was only serching for 1 person that loved me and didnt judge me."
Abby set her fork on her plate. "That is a load of bull s**t. You know that? When did you ever hear that we didnt love you." She said, her voice tense. Sophie, my other friend, looked at Abby, then me before standing up and wrapping my in a hug where she started crying. I smlied and hugged her back, glad to be welcomed with open arms.
I was looking for only one person who loved me, but I must have been blind to see that I had two people. Now I know how lucky I am and know that looks can be very decieving.
~Shavonne
 Dragonmaster1251 · Fri Jul 20, 2007 @ 03:55am · 2 Comments |
