stare I do not want to go back to school. I hate being with people, whom say s**t about you and do not even know you. I have a reputation at school. When i first moved to where i am currently at, i was the only goth kid. i was having a bad home life and i hated everyone. i did not have one friend. that was in fifth grade. when i got into sixth grade i turned to drugs, i did every drug u can think of. i wentto school everyday stoned or ******** up. i had a lot of friends though, that stood by me. when i got into seventh grade i did not touch drugs again. i woke up one day and said ******** it i want to have a good life. and i tried my hardest in school. i was in student council i was little miss popular. i had a s**t load of friends, i was datin the poplular guy. i had it going. my dad had just moved out life could not get any better. i had my greatest friend. well she moved her name was dakota. she moved away without telling me, and left me in the dust. b***h. in eigth grade i quit really caring about being popular and cool and s**t and i met corey in that grade. i was well known every since i moved here that i was the one taht does not give a s**t about what the hell i do and i am going to do it regardless. people hated me for that. plus i hung out with more guys then i did chicks. chicks will say s**t about you behind ur back and stab u in it. guys won't. but apparently having that many guy friends as i did people thought i was a slut. I AM A DAMN VIRGIN...I DO NOT BELIEVE IN SEX UNTIL MARRIAGE. my freshman year blew but it was not as bad as my sophmore. but this year i will be a junior. i can't wait because only two more years until graduation but once i am out of school that is the end of it. i want out to start a life. i feel as if i started everything too early. i never had a childhood because of my father. so i feel like i had my teenage years in sixth grade and now i feel like i should be in college. everyone says i act too mature for my age. my boyfriend chris is 21 he has 5 serious relationships and he even dated a chick that was 28. He said out of al those girls that I am by far the maturist. He says i do not give him bullcrap and a lot of drama. i feel as if chris is too good to be true. but then again, so was praying and it came true.
i hope i spend the rest of my life with chris. i hope he feels the same. but i am probably not worth it. i can expect someone to love me if i can not first love myself.
 Orchids of Apocalypse · Mon Aug 06, 2007 @ 08:57pm · 1 Comments |
