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Whats going on in my life rite now..(this is gonna be long)
Try to read as much as possible....just try lol..its long i know..
In middle school i was more of the follower...i never really spoke alot..and was also ignored. Plus being made fun of wasnt all that fun. Then 8th grade year i was a lil more sociable! i was happier! Come Freshman year..i become sumwhat quite agian...then...all my friends split up..i was devestated. I was once agian a loner...sitting in my room doing nothing (cept hang with anna).. Come summer before sophmore year..i meet new people. It was the COOLEST group of friends ever..i may not have talked to much..but i was happy. This group was mainly guys...then there was tiffany..hehe but she was considered a guy..(not to be mean razz ) anyway. The end of the summer, before sophmore year, was great..we hung out ALOT..Well..I began to like sum1. It was CALVIN woot..well he liked me.. eventually sophmore year was almost half way over...i ended up going out with calvin..i was SO ******** HAPPY!!! ...well..we had ALOT of ups and downs..but we stuck thru them..ha agian..HAPPY! Everyday was so fun! LOL either just laying around doing nothing or running around doing EVERYTHING! I was trying SOSOSO HARD to fit in..and i thought i was doing good at it (though ...it was..really..uh..tough lol) !..agian..Happy. One day..towards the end of sophmore year..a friend..seemed mad at me..it was Brian. I didnt think much of it....well it got worse..and i got sad and more sad with everytime he seemed mean towards me...i finally found out what was rong.. I was supposingly to close to joe..hanging out with him to much basically taking him away from brian (which..i never intended to do)...but what i dont get..is it wasnt just me...Joe was hanging out with me..so..should he be mad at joe to? Oh no..but he isnt..he just mad at me. ME and Calvin are actually getting better then ever! i was actually happy! thinking of calvin and TRY..not thinking much of brian being mad at me (ha). Well..Jered (tiffany brother) is leaving for the summer... we hang out at my house....of course..i feel used. im mad..becuz brian is being a d**k to me...so i hang out inside...WELL ROB decides he might wanna go to inplay..HELL!! i do to!! itll be fun!...well..i told joe..he said he would go to! well i told him he should ask everyone else first..case they wanna go..they dont..joe still does! so calvin leaves with brian and justin..and i leave with joe and rob. Jered...leaves for the summer ; . ;! anyway..i come home from inplay..and get on the computer..i talk to calvin..asking him if he is mad at me..his answer... I dont know well i find out he is mad at me..(agian..for a..dumb...dumb reason) basically..same reason as..BRIAN!! (supicious!?) to make things EVEN worse ...another good friend of mine..is gonna go to college..and this is his last summer here. hopefully..i have time..and im able to hang out with him before he leaves. Well im basically left with barely any one...becuz everyone is friends with calvin and brian..and since..they are mad at me..and dont like me...im alone agian if i tryed to even hang with them..id be ignored. This summer will be just like the last. Long and lonely! All i wanted was to stay friends with everyone and be happy agian...but it seems i cant have that. I think im just not cut out to having good friends i can count on and have a great time with. If sum1 is reading this...and you finally understand..thats great...i was hoping to tell people what is really going on..and why i may seem upset latley...
make it worse..i just broke up with sum1 i actually...really really loved (that would be Calvin)...but if i cant get those feelings back from him...im wasting my time? i just hope sooner or later..he realizes what he is doing..and talks to me agian.
Well hopefully someone read at least a majority of this..damn lol
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